期待。追寻。坚决。年轻

enjoy~ X

2011-12-28T20:34:00.000-08:00

Do you ?

累～×

2011-09-15T05:58:00.000-07:00

连续了快两个礼拜每天读差不多10个小时的书了。。。拍手给我，快点～！。。。。。谢谢啦～！XD

正在努力着～追一次奇迹。就算到后来还是什么都没有，也就算了～就赌他一次吧！加油！！！红花～ <3

My day ～×

2011-08-26T07:25:00.000-07:00

Raining whole day . Just like Annelise said ,its my day .yeah , my rainy day ~ :)

Somehow ,im like really stressed out a little bit . STPM trial is around the corner ,which is three weeks after . Freaking nervous . I have done my revision and finish a lot of books and also notes but still i feel like i have to do more and works harder ,but what else ?I dunno whats feeling is that but it is BAD ~! Like we aren't ready yet but still there is no more things to do .Which mean i can do nothing ~! ><

Well ,maybe thats one of the reason besides this moist weather which make me quite emo nowadays . haha .Again ... Ya, im loser in this ~ So what ? =P

Actually , i feel like gotta have a long post here .But i forgot everything in a second ~! hehe ...so ,next time ba ~ =) Its holiday now, so i will be here more frequently ,so see you ~ ^^

p/s : Its so sweet when you know that someone is think of you . Or when they say "i miss u " . Thats so great to be heard . <3

Bye ～×

2011-08-20T08:59:00.000-07:00

最近很忙很忙，忙读书啦，忙赚钱啦，忙出席叙别会啦，忙整理人际关系啦，忙家庭问题啦，忙自己的情绪管理啦。。。总之就是很忙很忙。。。

又再一次的有那种迷路的感觉，我不知道我在干什么？也不知道为什么要干这些事情。。。我很想很想放掉这一切看起来其实一点都不难，但是加在一起就是很乱糟糟的圈子。。。屁。。。

竣侥鸡巴走了。其实现在就有点想念他的感觉了。可能是觉得会有两三年不见面了吧，才会这样觉得。刚开始以为，根本就是没什么大不了的出国留学罢了，但是在他转身进闸的那一瞬间，真的觉得，好不舍得。看到她妈妈和大姐，拥抱后留下眼泪，其实真的很感动。我其实能想象到我自己进闸的这一瞬间，我妈咪，应该也会这样吧。。。

说回这位竣侥鸡巴吧～他啊，算是我的中学生涯中一个很重要很重要的角色吧。有时候想想，以我们之间的差距，能认识到本来是很难的事情。可能就差那么一点，我会变成那一些现在在我面前说他有多不可一世及多难相处的人吧！结果现在我们是很好很好的朋友也～！XD 哈哈～至少我看过他哭咯。哈哈。。。曾经他说过一句话（他应该有105%忘记了）：“你可以不要这样看小你自己吗？"真的是有被我珍藏咯～也是在那一段很难过的低潮期里，我们一起度过，真的真的很难得，害到我现在，超级无敌怀念的～><

这几天，其实很烦人。因为鸡巴就是那一种，大家不需要特别做任何形式上的东西来相处的朋友。而这几天，也就是竣侥离开大马的前几天，我就是真的很想大家，五个鸡巴好好的聚一聚。很可能是最后一次了，未来会怎样，我们不知道。就突然的那种不安全感，真的很糟。结果，好不容易联络到大头能够赶回来了，志宏也可以了，就是小眼睛鸡巴给我无法出席（并不是无法吧）。而最后一天的机场送机之约，也无法弄到五位鸡巴在场。。。蛮难过的。所以在回家的路上，突然的依寞，让我不想说话了～大家其实也都习惯了啦，哈哈，我知道他们习惯了，所以我就自己依寞自己爽啊～哈哈。。。

刚刚看过了大头鸡巴的部落格，蛮感动的。所以觉得我也有必要来一遍这样的”感性“文章～唉～人生啊～～～～

p/s : 叶竣侥鸡巴，祝你在美国会变帅啦。记得记得，不要变成带艾滋病的女神卡卡啊～～～=P

The Deathly Hollow ～×

2011-07-22T06:52:00.000-07:00

Its just yesterday when i went to Sunway to watch this Harry Potter final run . A little bit sad as its the end for harry potter movie .... Awwww..... i want my Hogwarts la .... Why cant i study there ?! >< hehe ...

Its really hard to get ready for STPM .AS im a energetic girl (=P) Its super hard for me to sit down properly and do my revisioin for 10 hours a day kay ? Its imposible ~!!! As so , 4 flat is going further and further from me now ... TT haiz ... What can i do ?

I know that i have leave my blog for a long long time . Can this prove that im a hardworking or good girl ? Erm ... I dunno ...

Well , going to 文娱晚会tomorrow . outing AGAIN ~!!! >< OMG , that free ticket fly into my pocket so how can i dont go ? OMFG～！！！

Anyway ,i believe that i will doing what i have to do right now actually .But hopes that my battery can last long enough until STPM which is still 124 days to go ~! O.O HELP~!!!

Okay ,gtg ,just feel like want to update my blog with some words . Im gotta bake tomorrow ~!!! I love baking ~!!! My homemade cheesecake was damn delicious ~! XD Its true ~ I got 100% of very good comments from every tester ~ hehe ~ so proud of myself .So , the sigh of " Ready to be married" is up now ~! XD hahahaha....

ps: Bye bye and good night ~! Enjoy your life ~!!!　^_^

其实～×

2011-06-29T05:34:00.000-07:00

其实，最近的日子我对我自己的依寞水平的维持是感到很满意的。上一篇那么依寞的红花心情日记，其实就是那么久以来的累计式的发泄而已啦～别担心，也别边读边说什么：“唉，又来了。。。”之类的话，哈哈，我会内疚的～！哈哈哈～

其实，最近都很努力。努力温习，努力做功课，努力跑步，努力地做个烂好人（也就是拼命逼自己吃亏的那种><），努力的戒掉pekchek，努力的收敛一点，努力地学成熟一点。不知道成果怎样，不过我自己倒是很满意的，至少目前为止，我只发过一次脾气，而且是向狗狗发的脾气，我不觉得有错咯～哈哈哈。。。

其实，我知道我自己幸福到爆。我也很开心啊～看我把嘴巴笑到这样大就知道了吧～！我知道我很不错的，至少我没有JJ鸡巴这样鸟，没有志宏鸡巴那么做作，没有蓝金鸡巴那么白目欠打，也没有卿庄鸡巴的那么强势（她妹妹偷偷告诉我的XD），对吧？！XDXD

其实，这只是一篇废话，纯粹是看今天那么有空才上来乱更新，挤掉之前依寞的那篇而已。。。呵呵～感谢阅读，这里是超级无敌依寞的红花，超无聊欠揍报道～

p/s : Really Thanks to all of the lovely messages and im actually so suprise with them ,as i thought im the only reader of this blog ,kakaz.... Really thank you guys ~! I appreciate that so much ~! ^.^

幸福。生活～×

2011-06-24T07:26:00.000-07:00

有时候，真的觉得这个世界太乱了，常常嘈杂的让别人误解自己那原本再简单不过的原义。
最近，做了些努力，数学啊，物理什么的，有点变得容易了，较得心应手了，但到后来才发现，其实最难的生活大道理，我花了十九年，还是学不会。。。

有时，真的会很沮丧。这个世界到底要我怎样，才是对的？我到底应该是怎样的一个人～当我觉得一切的伪装都不错了，足以应付外面的现实时，又突然被指责，被控诉，我其实怎样怎样，不应该怎样怎样。。。。我到底该怎样？？？我可不可以请谁来给我个答案？拜托。。。？

什么香蕉个大道理？有时还真的很讨厌自己。我很容易内疚的。就算是别人的不是，我也可以内疚一番。是我太小气？是我的错？我处理的很糟？我说的都很shit?

周围都闹哄哄的，我一个人就好像千夫所指的那一位，沉默着，让天使和恶魔交替发言着。我的错？其实我是对的？我太糟糕了？我没有问题啊。我真的很讨厌。你并不是，你就是那么令人讨厌！我不是～我是～我不是，我是。。。猛然站起身，随手抓了一份数学练习，面无表情的走出课室。这时是下课，大家都很兴高采烈的。我却只顾着走，尽量撑着。这种因为忍着眼泪而喉咙痛的经验，好像也习惯了。走进礼堂，张望了四周，决定到最不可能有人烟的舞台走去。坐在隐秘的梯边。为了不让别人发现，便假装在思考数学题，头低着，却无法完全消音。抽泣的声音其实还蛮好听的。就是这种委屈，我不可以让别人发现我很在意。期望有谁来安慰？不，不希望有。我不要是小气的，爱哭的那一种女生。需要肩膀？我不需要，因为我没有，没有人会愿意把肩膀捐给我这种讨厌的女生好吗？

还剩下五分钟。这个世界不会在这五分钟内转变。但我可以。我可以当没有事情发生过。我走到图书馆，再到食堂，再回到课室。没有人发现我的不对劲，很好。又再可以挤出笑脸，又再可以假装开朗坚强得可以随便大家大刀乱砍，暗箭乱射，都不需要理会。

我很强的，绝对的。你要不要来当当看像我的这种女生？或许你会做得比我好呢？^^ 加油吧，红花。乱糟糟的感觉，会过的。。。活着吧，看看哪一天，你会开窍的啦。。。

p/s :希望没有人看到这篇依寞的红花心情记事。。。

Holiday gonna end ~ ×

2011-06-11T23:06:00.000-07:00

Hello~~~ ! A too relax aunty is here ~just want to shout out loud ~ But i found that the world is so small as i cant even find a place to do so ~ =( Maybe im too big ?! hahaha ...

Went to my lovely Penang last Wednesday ~ And here's our photos ~ ^^

Im changing my style after the national debate competition , when i wore like a CEO ( not OL!) ,as i like myself in that feminine look~! hehe ...am i ?ＸＤ

Today is the last day of my two weeks school holiday ... Gonna bake muffin later ·Hehe ,just suddenly in the baking mood ~! Today will be my last day to do these stupid and enjoyable things , after that ,gotta work the hardest and try my best in my study ~! >< Im going to have STPM which is the most difficult exam in the world ~! (most or second most lar ~ haha .) Will i die in this war ?ＯＭＧ~! hahaha ...maybe ~ I fail my Chemist for second time since lower six ~Haiz ... I can still feel so satisfy as my result is not the lowest one in my class ~! OMFG～ Im gotta killed by this stupid attitude~!

Okay , see u guys later ~ =) hehe ...

P/s : Its time to reveal my sucks result ~!

Im home ~＊

2011-06-07T08:26:00.000-07:00

Im having a totally relax and meaningless holiday which i wished to have before after the national debate competition~ I even feel like dont want to move my fingers to type anything . But luckily , to show off my photos in the competition , i update my blog for the second time in this two weeks holidays ~ ^^

Still , lazy to type, because im going to Penang~!!! wahahaha ... I love Penang~! =) Happy Holidays guys~!!!!! ^.^

p/s: Having to much of delicacy ~ＨＥｈｅ　．．．

Away ~ ×

2011-06-01T18:33:00.000-07:00

Will leave my sweet home for 4 days ~! To a debate competition ,which we are suppose to be the participant but volunteer ~ ...=(

Anyway , just to have my last update in following 4 days . ^^ I think there will b a lot of photos after i come back here ... hehe ...hopes that everything will be perfect la ~!!!

See you~!

p/s : those daughter ar really ... haiz... have to used to it~

pp/ss : bye bye to my first ...

TGI Holiday ~!!!

2011-05-27T19:09:00.001-07:00

Yay ~ 红花真的很喜欢假期～！当然啦，谁不是？=P 这次的假期是在很幸苦的努力过后来临的，所以显得格外珍贵～假期之所以可爱，是因为我们可以逃离学校这个鬼地方，远离那些牛鬼蛇神。能的话，可以好好的闭关一下，躲进自己意识中的世外桃源，或是直接到远一点的地方，还真的是香蕉个苹果太爽啦～～～

回想起之前的假期，真的很开心。

12/31/2010-3/1/2011 - 新加坡～

2007 假期 - 泰国合艾

9/2010 - 槟城世界古迹遗产

9/2010 - Langkawi

还有一些的，但是懒得整理了啦～ ><

我想要旅行～！！！这句话我好像说了很久，但是结果是很令人失望的。现在我才发现，我其实并不属于任何一个点。我好像很多朋友，但是却猛然发现，原来我找不到一个人，就那么一个人和我去旅行。一个都没有。家人呢？很多问题，使得我很久没有和家人去旅行咯～上面到泰国的那一次之最近的一次了～一个人不能去吗？可以，当然可以。只是会寂寞一点，乏味一点，危险一点，无聊一点，依寞一点。就那么简单～

算了吧～就学习“一个人”的技巧好了。去适应那种很多人在你身边团团转，结果却没有一个人会对你有特别意义的那种感觉好了～反正依寞红花本来就很奇怪，在奇怪一点也无妨。。。

好了，该是享受假期的时候了～红花生活去了～ Ciao ~

*p/s : 任何人去旅行最好不要告诉我，我会妒忌的。。。

My Experience with SONY Cyber Shot

2011-05-15T05:23:00.000-07:00

Its really a great day ~! I love it so much and gonna to share this happiest and craziest day of JIBAS with you guys here ~ :) Will be a lot of photos and just a few words ~ ^^ hehe ,this is the lazy blogger style la ~!

Early in the morning , go shopping at Gurney ~!!!

Mr. JJ's favourite , Top Man ~!=)

And lunch time arrived ~! Hehe, shopping makes us feel hungry so easily . So, the first choice of JIBAS is CHILLIS ~!!!

They are sooooo delicious ~!!! Believe me , I cant even find a word to describe that level of delicious ~! wahahaha ... ( Hyperbola ) =P

And, this is my favourite ~!!!!!OMG ~ saliva keep secreting~ XD

And then , its time to picnic ~! ^.^ We bought sushi , snacks , grape , yogurt, and fruit juice~ hahaha , what a cute people ~

Here's the main point of this trip ~ =) Batu Ferringi ~! Its a really beautiful beach and I love it so much and i do plan to live there after retire ~ Hehe ~ :)

You can found that all of us wearing the "LAH " shirt . Its bought about maybe 2 years ago ,when we first picnic at Batu Ferringi ~ And we keep it until now, which we will wear it everytime we picnic here ~ ^^

See, peaceful and nice ~~~

After that , Its dinner time ~! ^^

We went to SOHO , Autocity ~Erm ,not really good for dinner but clubbing i think ~ =) The food is just "ok" only but still the price is reasonable ~

After the dinner , its time to go home . I really miss this trip so much as we will not have this chance anymore in the future ~ Everyone of us is going to be far apart ...... I really mean far ~ haiz, so, how about a picnic in this coming holidays ? =P

Halo ~ ×

2011-05-14T06:57:00.000-07:00

× wave wave* Ang Flower din come her home for so long as she is working so hard toward her target ~! Hehe ...Still emo, still sampat ,still want to have a tour so bad ( but i cant find any partner =( ) ,but im really working hard ~!!!

1B exam is here and i dont wish to do craps like 1A exam anymore ,so ,i study . I went a lot of place ~!hehe ~ and this is my rank :

1st , Starbucks !!!

OMG ,i addicted to it ~! ^_^ Furthermore , half-price frapuccino is really HOT ~! wahahahaha ~! Forever Starbucks ~!

2nd ,tci ji ( 慈济）

hahaha ... Its a great place to study , but it sometime make me feel boring and there is so cold ~!!!

3nd , 0 degree

A new shop just opposite my school ,i will only study there when i have no place to study ~hahaha ,there's noisy and a lot of lala girl there ~ yer ... JIBAS hate lala ~!!! =P

Who wanna go KL with me this coming holiday ??? *shouting shouting * I want to leave penang la ~ come come ~ hehe ^_^

p/s: gonna take part in a blogger comtest , so have to blog about the happiest moment with friends and families ,stay tune to know what im going to blog la~ Caution : Its not really attractive la ~ hahahaha =P Ciao ~!

And Flower = weirdo ～×

2011-04-25T06:32:00.000-07:00

Tada ~! Shortest hair ever in my 18 years long life ~! How's it ? :)

And ,gonna introduce my little pencil ~ ! =) Cute right ?!

Got a lots of feeling and emotional challenge recently. And im gonna grow wiser and stronger after all these things ~ Will I ? Haha ... I hope so . ^^ No emo for some days . And i felt great with this " achievement " !

I tried to make myself as busy as i can and start to work hard on my academic things . Im gonna die because of it ~! Its freaking boring~!

so, cheer ~! Ang FLower ! ^^

p/s :Im keeping a sweetest secret nowadays and its really hard for me~! >.<

What do u expect ~ ×

2011-04-17T06:02:00.001-07:00

What do you expect ?When everyone start to be blind for their only one (they always have many "the only one") ? when they start to look you down as to show their special allegiance to their forever (ya ,forever might mean a few days) ? when no one is really for u ? when u r not even a shit ?when u r that strong while others r that "weak" ? What do you expect ?

This is my latest facebook status .The only time i post the same thing at both my blog and facebook .Yeah ,what should i expect ?

The answer might be too down , but thats what make my life now .

what am i? Who care ? Anyone please answer or help me? Who will be that free ? hahahaha ~ Funny ~ what i can say is only whatever and act like i really dont care ~

It hard~ Its hurt~ But thats what you should deal with , Ang Qi Chen !!! Nothing you can do ,except bang the wall la~!!!!!! Damn STUPID Idiot RUbish weido ~!!!!

p/s: WTH ...

2011-04-17T06:02:00.000-07:00

Vintage ~ ×

2011-04-06T06:11:00.001-07:00

Me , Ang Flower who has a "mature"(or old ><) face ,in cheongsam ~! I got both super nice comments and also very bad comments in this ~! hahaha ...whatever . Because i like myself like this ,Vintage ma ~!!! :)

And then ,still some emo days and nights ~ Im busy and bored .Its kinda of empty feeling~ I lost the dream that i lived for before. So ,now, i dont really know what am living for ? Haha ... Im sure that every teenage have this feeling sometime . So ,its ok ~ nthg ~! ^_^

Well , nothing to blog ,so i should stop now . Its like my life now ,nothing to write and nothing to remember ~ Damn ... Bye ~!

p/s : no even ps to post ...=.=

坚持？～ ×

2011-03-27T05:32:00.000-07:00

“三年了。。。” 原本已尽力忍住的眼泪，却也还是溃堤了。

是啊，三年了。我在坚持个屁啊？！这样的笨蛋，还真的是没有药救了。谁叫她就是愿意去相信，她会有机会了结这样的一个遗憾，这样的一个悲剧。

“有我开始的，就会由我结束。。。”这是她在比赛前说的。结果，现在，连一个辩词都没有机会说，她就得又再一次的去创造遗憾。

“是你们自己的辩才不足吧～！”有些人这样说。有眼睛与有脑的人，都知道是什么问题。但是，他已经不想再去解释。一切都还是这样，何必再去嚼嚼那早就烂掉了的悲伤。她难过，又怎样？赛果还是这样。每天早上醒来时，很想要发现原来这一些不幸也只是场梦罢了。但每天都很失望的，被迫去接受这就是事实。。。这种无法形容的难受，简直是。。。她妈的×××××× ～！

这年，连老师都已忍无可忍了。整个被气得，有点跟评审理论的意思。这是什么？辩论？还是你们偏私的舞台？！第一年遭遇这件事的队友，和当年的我们一样，有风度的但极不愿意的和对方握手微笑，然后下台马上痛哭流涕。我们心疼，我们惋惜，而对方母狗却在一边庆功，狂笑，把自己捧得多棒。恶心的笑容，我记住了。今天的一切，我无法接受。我又能怎么做？

我不敢再说些什么”大家走着瞧！” 或是“ 他们不会好过的！”之类的狂言，因为我已经没有任何能力去兑现任何东西～只能依寞，然后还是一样～

我不能说我累了，毕竟我才十九岁，跟许多经历过真正大风大浪的人来说，这些何足挂齿？！但是也因为我才十九岁，我会对这样的事情感到无力。那种无力感其实很熟悉，但却还是无法适应，对不起，我的错～

康洛：“坚持不容易，但更不可以放弃。人有梦想是伟大的，但遇到百般挫折，经历无数阻挠后仍能坚持自己的原则，追求自己的理想才是值得让人敬佩的。或许旁人会笑我们傻，笑我们痴，但只有我们自己才晓得我们为了什么选择继续坚持，只因我们坚信那倾盆大雨后一定会有我们心中灿烂的那道彩虹。加油，北钟辩论队，我永远支持你们，我们一起努力，等待天空从新放晴，彩虹出现眼前的那一刻，好吗？

等吧～坚持吧～反正都糟成这样了～唉～呜呼哀哉～

A对和B队的美好的回忆～

p/s : 可能是我带赛～！

What a lovely holiday ～ ×

2011-03-19T20:15:00.000-07:00

Ok , im too lazy to update ~ because i got lots of things to do recently .(not really~^^)

Its the last day of holiday . Sad. I have to face my sucks result in the school very soon~ >. <
Last Sat and Sunday , went to a camp named " 豆浆油条” 。Its a great camp as i learnt a lots there ~What made this memory so special for me is , my talent in debate made me well known in the camp ,and thus got a high profile ~ Besides , everyone thought i was only form 4,form 3 or a few think im "already" form 5~!!! XD Such a great comments for me ~I cant forget their shocked expression when i revealed that im Upper 6 student . OMG ~ Thats such a great feeling ~! ^_^

Yay~! We are champion ~!!! =）

And then , a lot of debate discussion and practice ~ this will be a very super duper important competition for us ~ OMg ~freaking pressure now~ >.<

More info ,please refer to my Facebook la~! XD Happy last day of holiday ~!

Ciao ~!!!

haiz～×

2011-03-07T03:02:00.000-08:00

I have used to my geli result since very long time ago , but this time ,its really CRAPS ~! >.< If its isnt the problem of the teacher ,then the reason must be my Intelligent have deteriorated ~!!!WTH ......

4/3 (Friday) - PA status - dead
7/3 (Monday) - Chemistry status - totally dead (in the way body be divided into 5 pieces )
8/3 (Tuesday ) - Math status - have surrendered and going to die very soon
9/3 (Wednesday) - Biology status - no more life to die GAME OVER ~ T_T

OMFG ~!!! Am i that geli ? haiz ... suan le ba ~ just see how bad am i tomorrow ~ =..=

有时候～×

2011-02-25T20:04:00.000-08:00

真的只是有时候，自己的梦想很多
却，力不从心

真的只是有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话
只想，一个人静静的发呆

真的只是有时候，在自己脆弱的时候，想一个人躲起来
不愿，别人看到自己的伤口

真的只是有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话心里，郁闷的发慌

真的只是有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎
有很多过去，无法释怀

真的只是有时候突然找不到自己
把自己，丢了。。。

哈哈，依寞宝贝又依寞了～！

（摘录自，面子书）

What a journey ~×

2011-02-24T05:30:00.000-08:00

I lazy to type ,so i capture and post ~! Haha ,if you can get what im going to express , Congratz ! you are my type !!! wahahahahaha ~~~

Hmm ... seriously ?!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha ...steady ~! This is emo flower's story ~! =P Ciao !!!

P/s : wa bo syiok wa bosyiok ~!!!! >.<

A sick Valentine Day ~ ×

2011-02-14T06:05:00.000-08:00

I have slept a lot today .Oh my god i feel dizzy ,lost of appetite and running nose ! >.<>

Anyway , Happy Valentine . Haha , today dont mean anything special for me ,i m just ikut jejak those in facebook who are acting like so excited because of today ...=.= And ,i saw a lot of geli picture （or even a album) from those lala couple. For example , a boy cook for his girl friend (who for me is very ugly one) without wearing his upper part of body... WTH ~! AND a girl said she is like in a drama or movie because his boyfriend send a flower to her ( just 3 pink roses in it) , just because of she can sign on the receipt ...=.=

Haha , im not in a "love sick " which my penpal said , but i really cant withstand with those "lovely " couple pattern lo~!!! Ngo jit shao ng dou lo~!!!! >.<

Im really too lazy nowadays . Everytime when i passed through my blog ,i will read others blog rather than update mine . :) Hey , im busy ok? I gonna prepare my debate competition which im damn worrying now ,and watch those soap drama and facebooking and online window shopping and etc... . Haha ,=P .

Ok ,=.=, pointless article shouldnt be to long ~! Ciao ,feel sleepy again , maybe of that little cute orange pill ,which look like a tasty sweet ~! :)

Heres some photos ~! =)

p/s : You like to pattern jiu continue pattern la~ I dunwan rescue kamu liao ~!!! XD wahahahahahahhahaahhaha ~!!!!!

Happy Bunny Year～ !!!

2011-02-03T18:40:00.000-08:00

Gong xi fa cai to everyone ~!!! ^_^ Its lovely Bunny year now ~! Wish you all best and have a fortunate year ~!=）

Here's my dairy since my holidays ...

1st day ~ Shopping with 6AS3 buddies to carry out a makeover project . ^_^

2nd day ~ Do nothing at home ,.Oh ya , i have read a bit of the book "rich dad, poor dad " .hehe=)

3rd day(Monday) ~ Shopping again with my family ~! We went to Billion ,Carefour ,Pacific and etc . ...

4th day ( Tueasday ) ~ Have gathering with my Primary school's old friends . A meaningful one with a lot of laugh (extremely crazy one) and gossip ... =..=

5th day ( Wednesday ) ~ Reunion dinner is the must in this day . Therefore , nothing special thi day , but im bored enough ~! >.<>.< style="color: rgb(255, 102, 102);font-size:130%;" >GONG XI Fa CAI to everyone la ~!!! XD

Makeover ～～×

2011-01-30T02:43:00.000-08:00

Wahahaha。。。。 Have a lot of fun shopping with Yong Zhuan ,Shuan Gooi ,Yit Yeung ,Meng Key (Shuan Gooi) Sister and our target ,Hui Ying ~! ^o^ This is our very first time ,and yeah , this is a weird group too ~!!! =)

Report for the mission of Hui Yng's makeover ~

Objective : To help Hui Yng in having her style in the right century . =P
Date : 30/1/2011 ( Saturday )
Avenue : Pacific Megamall
Members attended : As listed above .
Budget : RM150
Mission : Get at least 2 set of clothes for hui yng .

Result : Mission completed ~!
Description : We got 3 sets of clothes and a pair of shoe ~!!!
Remark : We forgot to return the movie's fee to Shuan Gooi ~!!! =P haha ,will return tohim after school reopen lar ~ And i bought a Biology book ~!!! ( Such a hard working girl huh ?! ^_^)
Evidence :

Before~

*TADAA ~~~*

After ~!

p/s : haha ~~~ enjoy the time before CNY arrived ya~! XD

Wanna shout ～×

2011-01-27T04:47:00.000-08:00

We got the Champion ~!!!! AHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhh ~~~ XD Thats freaking excited for us as we can now ask the stupid fellow to shut up proudly and well its a result from all of us in 6AS3 ~!!!!

I really feel so lucky to be one of this class . This is the only thing that make my form 6 life wonderful and meaningful . Yeah , i love you guys ~! Wahahahaha ... XD On the cloud nine ~!

okay , cool down . And then its our last day of school before the 9-days-CNY holidays ~!!! AAAHhhhhhhhhhh *shout again * !!!wahahaha ... we got 2 talks (some kind of motivation talk ) which are going to occupy most of our class , and a MAKE UP lesson by Teacher Ong Rosee in our MUET class ~!!! WHeeeeee ... wahahaha ... What a crazy thing to do in CLB ~! We will make up ~!!!! XD Believe it or not ...yeah it is my Form 6 life ~! =)

well ,* cool down again * ,i got so lots of things to do nowadays ~! But i enjoy it as well . No time for me to emo ~! Good , emo flower isnt here ~! And red flower is getting stronger and more mature . Thanks those geli people in my life ,who help me to learn a lot . Im wiser and more "bearable" ~! =)

Anyway ~ im so excited now ~! Cant wait for all those party and gathering ! XD See you guys soon ~! Muaaakkkkkzzzzzzzz ....Love you guys so much ~! ^_^

p/s ： Gong Xi fa cai ~!

Well。。。 ×

2011-01-22T21:00:00.000-08:00

Have a great day of Class decoration competition yesterday .Its really a true competition ,theres even a little war between someone stupid from other class with my classmate (including me actually ) >.^ Everyone take it so seriously and we whoao a lot of ppl ~!!!

Here's the picture ,

This is 6AS3~!!!=)

p/s:shut up lar you ~! XP you cant imagine what will i do if you drove me mad successfully ...

No regret ～×

2011-01-21T04:52:00.000-08:00

Im good and im perfect , cause , i have no regret ~~ =)

p/s : A beautiful life here ~~ ^_^

My week of brain juice ~ ×

2011-01-19T04:15:00.000-08:00

I've said a lot of " What the hell~! " in this week ,and it gonna to be my habit , i think ~ LOL =P

WTH 1 :

A quite good time with JIBAS these days . We discuss and meet for a debate competition just like how we always did in our Secondary school life . Well , we lose in the first round ...=.= haha ,whatever ~! But we still, had a celebration after that ~! In Gurney ~! Chilis!!! XD

Yeah , this is JIBAS style ~ wTH ...

WTH2 :

Rushing for my Biology projects . 3 projects in a row!!! WTFish ~?!>.<

WTH3 :

What ?!!!!!! Hair check again ??? WT@#(&$$*%^#$^@*#& >.< .... What do you guys want from us ? Its chinese new year kay?!and we are already ADULT !!! We wont get better result or be more discipline when we have a short and ugly hair kay?! you foolish guys ,WTHHH~!!!!

WTH4 :

I found that i always feel so sleepy nowadays . I can fall asleep while im doing the immediate Math exercise in the class... but luckily , my posing was like thinking about the question very hard XD ...thats why our very cute Math teacher didnt notice about this~!!! And , i even fall asleep while im having my haircut !!! 2 times !!! WTH ... The barber noticed it and amchio pulak~!!! wahaha...

Anyway ,Chinese New Year is around the corner !!! Yay~! And now, theres lots of things to do !!! Like decorate the class, complete my BIOlogy projects , shopping ,and bla bla bla bla ......=) Im looking for ang pau~! hehe ...and also gatherings la~~~ Date me date me now ~~^o^

p/s :What The Hell ... ^_^

Singapore trip ～×

2011-01-09T02:47:00.001-08:00

Back from Singapore 6 days ago ...And im really too busy to blog about it . Now , im free ... But i feel like dont want to do my homework and revision .(Bad girl ~!>.<) So ,i blog ~! But im a little bit too lazy to type a lot today so , just let pictures talk~!!! Enjoy ~ =)

pp/ss: for more picture , View my facebook profile lar~~~

p/s : Preparation for debate competition nowadays ...hmm... Thats why im busy~! hehe=)

Ermmmm ~×

2011-01-07T08:35:00.000-08:00

哇。。。要这样吗？

无言。。。这样也能的话，回你的火星去吧，地球太危险了。

致，甜心

p/s :Hmmm ....... =.=

Woohoo ～～×

2010-12-30T05:46:00.000-08:00

Singapore ~!!! im coming to you ~!!!! wahahahaXD ... the last three day of the end year holiday ,and im going to be in Singapore ~! ^_^ How excited am i~!!! =)

Just now , about 3 afternoon ,have a young girl Tea time gathering ! Ok, but Neri and Angie were late! Hmmm... Yen ling was even later ~!!! wahaha ... see , im always the punctual one . Am i?! =)

We talk and chat and laugh like we are gossiping in our own little girlish room but in fact everyone were like staring at us~! XD You cant imagine why i have so lot of topic to talk with those young girls (erm ...2 years younger than me) ,but its real that i laugh until i couldnt laugh any more as every muscle on my face have being so tired !!!XD laugh die~!

×about the toilet bowl ~!Dirty joke！Started by Neri×

Thanks angie , Neri and Yenling ~ A very great tea time with you guys =) I feel like im as young as you guys too ~! lol ~~>.<

×Playing kiss-kiss～ahem...=.=×

×neri's poor skill in taking photo made us tired~!!（or we have laugh too much ?!)=..=×

×Nah ... Photo outside /in the toilet AGAIN ×

ok,then went home after 2 hours non-stop chatting ... And its time to pack up my things . Hmm , my mum keep giving me suggestion about my clothes , my shoe and everything . Okay , i have used to it long long time ago. Then, chose some cloth which hopefully dont make me regret and sia sui in Singapore ...

Then , think about my bag which have i ordered from an online shop . Called my friend who help me to settle those stuff . But again, no one answer or reply my call every time when im in a must-have-it-done-before-time situation .Oh gosh ~! Please answer or reply my call or i will become really extremely totally super duper crazy and pek chek !!!

And nothing to do now ... hehe, free enough to blog after i found that nothing to do in facebook ~!!! Getting boring with it now ... hmmm...

okay, gtg ... Bye everyone ! Im going to Singapore~!!! XD

×say cheese ~! ×

p/s : Happy ending holiday and school opening ~!!! =)

Fairy tales ~×

2010-12-27T19:42:00.000-08:00

New song for my bloggie ~ Nice and wonderful ~! I love it so much!!! Hope you too~!^^

Life bring me a lot of things . Good and bad , like and hate . Somehow , they are too much to blind myself ,too make me like a fool when i always act like a geniuse(although im not) ... Everything comes to the end. Everything past , every good store in our mind as a smile ,sunshine or a warm memory .Everything bad have been neutralised by time too! We actually gain everything beside losing our life ,our time and also young .

I want a fairy tales ,who dont ? I want a perfect world .Yet, its impossible . Flaws always shown when perfect exist . When something goes right , something might be seen like wrong . Thats for sure . And thats why greedy born to be the weakness of people .

As a blogger , its bad to be too long gas . But i am ~ hahaXD Im actually here to tell you guys that i have a new handphone . Sony Ericsson Vivaz is mine now~!!! A beautiful Ruby colour ,touch screen smart phone ~! 8.1 megapixels camera which is the most attractive factor to me !HD video function is BRAVO ~!!!! Like im filming a movie! Yet, the price is affordable too !!! My mum , dad and brother buy for me ,as the christmas + SPM present ~ LOL I think ....=)

Heres my 1st day pictures with it ~! Enjoy~!^^

p/s : Love it ~!!! XD

Going throgh ～×

2010-12-21T03:47:00.000-08:00

哇～～好不容易有得放假啦～～一整个学校假期里，真正放假的日子还真的是没有那么几天。。。一个假期做三份工，还真不是普通的累啊～>.<可是这样也很不错，因为我发现我"忘了”依寞满多天咯～！×喜讯哪～×^^

前天拿到成绩单。呃，很烂。烂到我怀疑，我家的墙壁够不够给我撞。。。=。=看到自己的成绩，很无奈，却又不能做什么。。。安慰自己：可能我对那种很好的成绩有阴影了，所以我才考不到好成绩。。。接受吗？

结果，咖啡的瘾发作，马上叫羽晶陪我去喝咖啡看电影。。。管他香蕉葡萄个烂苹果的成绩，我就是要逃避，×你看不到我，你看不到我·× 。。。。XD

待会，又要和小巧玲珑+娃娃音的虾去槟城了～！耶～～～i love Penang ~! ^o^
说是要买鞋买包包，可是我应该会突然间舍不得，不买了～～～省钱的种子已深深地埋在我的魂和魄中，悄悄的萌芽着～～XD

明天开始又被叫去做工咯～！！！圣诞佳节，我的脚，应该会忙到断掉吧。。。薪水很低，对于我这种人材来说，哈哈。。。。但是，我说了。只是当作帮他们的忙咯～～明年开始，起价～！！！XD

×我工作的店，简称我的店～=.=×

好了，该去准备了。。。拜拜各位～！大家假期快乐蛤～～^_^

p/s:我发现我越来越不能好好的说话，和写东西了，好像都有点中国腔～～～=。=

Times forget~×

2010-12-13T21:20:00.000-08:00

Beautiful raining day with nice music from headset . Everything good by far away from reality .... I dont like him , but he find me himself . Its always sarcastic that what we dont need is always there for us but what we longed for so long will only be a mist ...

So, a special training here : Avoid what i missed so much , far away from everything , tell myself everything will be better without these nice "opportunity" then i will be alright soon~~

Heard like so weird huh?! Im weirdo all the time , dont i ?

Happy raining day ~!!!

p/s : Refreshing myself.... =)

好吗？～×

2010-12-08T21:09:00.000-08:00

最近的天气都好好哦～就是那种很唯美的阴天，那种随时会有天使下来接你到另一个世界去探险的天气。。。

载我去兜兜风，好吗？
我很想来一次安静的旅行，不许要用脑的行程。安静而简单，唯美而满足。。。

带我去走一走，好吗？
我很想看看那些我过去没有留意过的风景，事物，看看有什么变了，又有什么还在执著着。。。

弹一首歌给我听，好吗？
用嘴巴随便哼的也可以，走音也无妨，我只想知道，我值得。。。

不要再问我了，好吗？
我没有什么，只是因为我还真的什么都没有。

让我拥有我自己，好吗？
我太在意了，让我都快变成成年时期基因突变的失败品了。

在红花是红花的时候，给予点赞同，或是感动吧。虽然她是有点丑，有点胖，有点霸道，很多点依寞，但是像她这种女生，真的不多了～～×
拜拜，走咯！

p/s: 我明年想去台湾或巴厘岛旅行，谁要跟我去？^^

我很累～×

2010-12-05T20:09:00.000-08:00

我故意和大家“断线”，因为我觉得是时候让我自己一个人冷静了。。。

最近，一直工作，让自己变工作狂。。。就连我妈也很担心的问我，干嘛那么年轻就让自己工作得那么累？

好像很容易掉眼泪。看到真人秀里的人一家团聚，哭，看到哈利的精灵（Dubby)死了，哭，听到一些冷静但很依寞的歌，也哭～！哇老。。。可以这样白痴，也很不容易。。。

还是依寞。因为，习惯了。没有朋友的消息的日子，还真。。。不错？！我不知道，反正这对一些朋友来说，还真的很棒，没有了依寞的红花，幸福的日子就不远了，对吗？

圣诞快到了。能的话，自己一个人到很远很远的国家发呆，应该会很棒的。。。

圣诞节快乐。。。

p/s:肌肉酸痛。。。还有，我很累～×

Hmm...～×

2010-11-30T18:38:00.000-08:00

Sorry to be complaining AGAIN ~! ^_^ But ,its not my fault ... hehe... okay , i want to update my blog but nothing to share ... what have i done in these few days is just watching Harry Potter 1,2,3 and 4 ,online ,sleep a lot ,eat a lot , work and attend a wedding dinner ... I like Harry Potter so much~! (i know im to old to say this >.<)

Actually the plotting or the story about the young heroes in the movie wasn't that good or interesting but a little bit childish ... And thats why a lot of people (such as Mr. JJ ) hate this movie series so much ,but i like the magic and the world in the movie ... Yeah , it nonsence ... But the reason why i love this movie is they are too far from the reality ...^^

Somehow , this make me hate my life or even myself . I want to be like them ,i want to live in that world . Its nothing to do with having power or admired by the world but they have something so unforgettable and meaningful in their life ! I tried to search in my memory and try to get something which could make me feel like im not wasting my life , but the result is totally disappointed . Thats why i keep emo around like a idiot ,because thats what i am...

Down . Maybe im a bit obsess (not a bit actually) which make me feel so bad ... I have to stop this ,stop wanting those dream which is impossible to reach . Hmm... but if there is a choice , i would exchange my remaining life with that kind of experience .Because thats why i live ,what life mean ...

Ahem ... back to the topic . i have nothing to say about the topic ! wahahaha ....foolish me XD im going to work later , as a photographer again... Guess what ? I have two job in this one and the half months holiday ... i do not want to have so much job actually but my ex-bosses called me and asked me to do so ... wahaahahahaha ,such a pleasure ... =)

Okay, good bye everyone , have a nice day ~!

p/s: Any suggestion of the blog template webpage ? i wanna to change my blog template . Maybe an emo one~! XD ^^

Nothing ～×

2010-11-29T20:44:00.000-08:00

Nothing good here ,at least i cant found even 1 ... bad enough ~! >.

Im someone i dont know now . There are two things inside me who make me feel even worse . One maybe a black anger devil and another will be the white kind angel ... Im blur...What is good to do ,what should i do ? I thought im just emo around like a idiot before ,but now ,after i decided to get those emo off ,im still feeling so bad . I dont want to be someone like this actually ,but i am ...

Whatever ... i should shut my mouth shut and maybe dissapear ... I dont like myself like this and of course i know many of my friends do so ... okay...bye...

here are some pictures in my cousin wedding dinner ... Take a look ~!

p/s: I know..i know ...

Peace ~ ×

2010-11-22T20:54:00.000-08:00

Today will be a peaceful rainy day ~!Its my holiday , finally ... Phewwwwwwwww.... After the end year exam of our school ,i thought i will be free enough to emo here and there ,and then put a lot of harmful gases in my blog and even facebook ... Its my dream season actually ... i like it and longed for it badly...>.<

But now, im still busy like a bee (a fat one) , jog to keep fit , work for extra money , outing with friends and many more activity is coming soon !!! ^^

Finally, a blank space of the calender arrived . Its today ~!=) i dont have any plan for today ... woohooo... thats why im able to update my mossy blog and relax~

I wanna to go Penang with JIBAS . Hey !Chin Yee Xian ,where is your plan ??? Im waiting for your call !!! And , Neri , when will be our gathering? you said you will bring me to Australia before right? XD can i redeem it now? hehe ... Alicia ,how about you? Bring me out eh~~ Im always free (not really) ... =)

Haha...tomorrow will be my movie day ~! RM5 in GSC cinema ...i will watch Harry Porter . I dont know this movie very well but i have a quite good perception about it ... Mr. yeap hate it so much ! And thats the main reason i must watch it in cinema XD ....!

This is my holiday ~!!! wahahahaha...im lovin it~! =) I wanna relax relax and then relax .... nothing else to do ... But nothing so great in this reality world . =( I will be busy again in December ...got extra class for form 6 ,debate competition , works and TOUR to singapore~! =)

SO, bye everyone ,im gonna to do something useless now such as dreaming , dreaming or dreaming....How enjoy am i !!!!!!!^o^

p/s : Happy Holidays ~~~~!!!

pp/ss : i know my language for this post is terrible ,because my brain is unable to process in normal speed now... Its hang~!!!!=)

Stay tune ~~~

2010-11-16T06:56:00.000-08:00

What happened to this emo LEO girl ???

Maybe she is just lazy to talk anymore...

Does this possible to happen ???

OF Course NOT ~~~!!!! ^o^ So , stay tune ..... She will make a long gas again soon!!! ^^

p/s : CRAPS in my exam ~!!!!!!!!!

Emo Flower ~~

2010-11-06T23:17:00.000-07:00

Saturday，跟jibas去海边晒太阳。。。

很不错，够无聊。。。

我很久没有这样无所事事地度过一个下午，游手好闲的感觉，真的很不错。。。

I really feel that only Chinese words can express the jibas's feeling in the last paragraph ... Dont ask why? Emo flower dont have answers for everything kay?! ^_^

Sunday , went to my primary school with Ann Lee . Had some chat with my teachers' . The contents were almost the same , something like : Where am i studying now ? Din get scholarship or matrix or etc.... how about others ? How about your brother ? How ......
But its became a bit more interesting when 阿牛appeared in our school suddenly !!!

Lazy to uplaod the pictures now...hehe...Next time lah ~! If i still remember it =)

p/s :not the point that i want to tell you guys actually but now , im sleepy , thirsty , busy and tomorrow is school day so , tell you guys next time kay ? Visit me again if you guys wanna know what i trying to you guys ~!hehe... bye + good night + a big and sweet good night kiss ~~!
MUACKKKKKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ。。。。 ^O^

p/s : I love JIBAS so much ~! ^^

pp/ss : Yuck~~~

无聊地耍白痴+依寞一下～～×

2010-10-24T06:37:00.000-07:00

Hmm。。。很久没有来咯！我最近发现我还真的无聊没事做到白痴的地步。。。唉！这就是18岁了还要留在中六的悲哀啊。。。还有，我也学会了一口流利的“破”华语 =（broken Chinese)哇啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊。。。谁来拯救这个美少女啊~~*ahem*=.=

好咯！要考试了咯！是应该开始读书了。。。可是啊，我可能看着书的一个小时里面只有十分钟是真正的“读书” ，其他的时间。。。我也不知道我在做什么。。。唉～～

更好的是，要放假了～～！！！这次的假期应该会很忙，很累。因为截至目前为止，就已经有辩论比赛，三个旅行，和假期工要做。。。。哇。。。等下我又在依寞，我也不知道该怎样了。。。

哈哈。。。（干笑）走了。。。拜拜。。。这就是华文A+的人写的破华语文章。。。大家参考参考啦！！！！^_^

p/s: 倒数三个星期就假期咯～～！

Its simple and nice ～～×

2010-10-15T21:53:00.000-07:00

Im happy ... Im enjoying my life and my young nowadays ... I learnt the definition of happy and the meaning of peace of mind ... I love peace ... I hate noise so much ,although im the talkative one most of the time but i do hate them ...

Of course , im not yet a nerd ,because im still having a lot of outing with my buddies... hehe ...evidently , im too free ~~ WHEEEEE~~~~

I have planned to get the franchise of Ice-ice baby one day ~~~

OF course ,not a short term plannimg... =)

I got this from website ～～Like this badly～～×

I like myself in this picture cuz i looked so girl-ish here that i seldom be !!! ^O^

And a super good news here ~~!!! I have done my MUET speaking test this Thursday ! Its such a relief and i think i did well ~~ Why do i say so??? hehe... Because the very kind and friendly examiner ask me two questions after my test ,that are :" Do you studied in chinese school since your primary education ?" I said yes ... then :" so your parents talk to you in English ?" I said nup of course .After that , he said :" Hmmmm...then you speak so well huh...." OMG !!! I nearly jump or shout in the exam room cause im too happy to get this praise that i had never had in my life !!!

I really hope that it wasnt a dream ...i hope that i had heard the right things... Im so high ~~~!^^ But though , many of my friends doubt my words,haha ,whatever . I really got this praise . My hard work pay ...T_T

WHEE~~~ Im really happy -ing ... hope that every jibas and friends of mine will be like me too ! Promise ?!

Im flying above everything～～×

2010-10-04T05:33:00.000-07:00

飞跃一切的上头，才发现人生不过如此，快乐是最简单的幸福～～

这几天，遇到了蛮多的衰事。我生气过，恨过，也抱怨过，但之后，却也烟一样的，飘飘然。
我问坐在我旁边时不时就发呆的黎科吟，我有那么的让人讨厌吗？！不然的话，又是为什么？
我当然知道这就像是幼稚园大班的小鬼才会问的问题，但有时，你知道的，生活的荒谬，与滑稽，会让人忘了成熟，忘了生命中最简单的答案。

未来想当心理学家的黎科吟说：“那你就必须先搞清楚，到底是他的问题，还是你的问题。。。”我确实有点不耐烦，毕竟，这句话听得还有点厌了。“如果，” 他缓缓地接着说；“你觉得是他的问题，那就不用再烦恼下去了，因为他是不会为了你而改变她那令人讨厌的地方的。如果你觉得是你的问题，那你就可以往你的这一方想，究竟那是什么？如果，你觉得你没有任何不妥，那么又何必恨得牙痒痒的呢？”

我听了，脑袋顿时就像是被投了一颗原子弹一样。我想，是她的问题，所以就不用管它呗！他这种人渣，都不会应为你的愤怒而改变烦醒，那你生气来做么？！当然也可能是我的问题。但我唯一有可能的问题，就是我太鸡巴了！！！这是一件我引以为豪的事啊！！！既然如此，就让她继续讨厌下去吧！反正我会一直鸡巴下去的～～

这件事情之后，我发现现在的我已经完完全全，成功地逃离“世界末日症状”了！我发现，我开始学会飞跃在世界的上头，无声无息的幸福着。我学会了欣赏快乐，所以我很快乐。我喜欢坐在门口口的矮槛上，像傻子一样盯着被风吹得乱七八糟的叶子；或是听雨打在车窗上的声音。我喜欢这样，静静的幸福着。至少没有抱怨的嘈杂，没有叹气的噪音。。。我可以在别人抱怨的同时，感觉到自己的智慧，一种疼爱自己的智慧。当然，这是在受伤，痛到半死之后，学来的。现在想想，还蛮值得的呵～～！

我肉麻完了。我开始幸福了。虽然有时还是会容许自己依寞一下，但是，又何妨？！

这篇不只是一篇对快乐的告白，对生活的感性宣言，也是一篇值得分享给大家的感言，（尤其是吴鸡巴，陈鸡巴和Neri），希望你们也可以幸福，快乐，美满～～！善哉善哉^_^

p/s: 要学会飞翔在所有事物的上头，最重要的是要让你的心和灵魂飞起来。学会聆听，由心底传出来的旋律，你会发现如天堂般的，天籁之音，以及深刻的幸福痕迹。。。^_^

Poison apple～～×

2010-09-30T06:18:00.000-07:00

Okay. I want to claim that im not complaining again . But in chinese ,i will said my situation like this :" 为什么我要留在这里给她们蹂躏蜗？？？ ” wahaha... thats fun actually...because it proved that im really capable in driving those respected TEACHERS mad~~!!!! wahahahahahaha....(this is so-called laugh of victory !)^O^

Hmmm... Why im always be the target of those teacher ,since i stepped into CLB and started my "adventure" here ??? im wondering this question now . Maybe im so successful (what have i achieve?); maybe my face is really kinda of provoke like telling the teachers :" you witch ! come on if you dare!!!" ; or maybe i have really hurt then through my conversation with them ?(But i swear ,i dun even know which alphabet have i used that hurt them!!!) lol ....wth

nevermind ...im LEOand im JIBA . so most of the time ,im the winner!!! woohoo~~~ c'mon, you are the one who start the war and who will also be the one who die in this battle!!! wahahahahahahaha......

p/s: im ok...^_^ just a little bit insane ...dun woorry about me ,because i swear that i wont burn the teachers' house . Maybe just get some paint on it la...wahahahaha^O^

pp/ss: @@%$%%$^*#@@#$&^%&#$^#$%~~~~!!!

Photos + Tanglung Festival ～～×

2010-09-23T06:04:00.000-07:00

Jiba-ish romantism ～～×

This is cool~~× I like this ...^_^

Emo Queen's post ~~×

Then ,the tanglung Festival one...^_^

They are my daddy and mummy ~~! hehe...

This is a great time to play with fire ~~=)

okay ... tis pretty girl holding the minnie tanglung is my MUM but not my younger sister... lol...>.<

My cousin ~~!

祝各位 = 中秋节快乐～～！！！
Wish you guys have a Happy Tanglung Festival ~~~!!!!

p/s : Love~~ ^_^

My day ～～×

2010-09-18T19:28:00.000-07:00

Had lunch with Jiba Goh , Wei Jia and Siang Wei yesterday .Before the lunch , i felt so frustrate with the PRS meeting but when and after the lunch , i felt so delightful~~~! credit to cheah siang Wei's special and dirty joke and Gan Wei Jia's action , you guys r really a great entertainer !!!! ^o^

Since im going to get heart-attack after the lunch, we decided to go Taoyuan (桃园）, Taiwan to have some photoshot~~!^_^

Its really great to deal with them. they can do everythin that a normal girl wont do in their life but , they did it!!! wahahahahahahaXD then ,the greatest photoshot that i have ever had before... i love Cheah Siang Wei's camera so much!!! hehe....=)

there are still alot of photos in Siang Wei there.I will post them here next time and Bye~~!

p/s : love my day~~!

Craps ～～ ×

2010-09-16T05:57:00.000-07:00

This face mean i have done craps in my 2A exam.... As im quite used to it , so i can still smile widely and talk loudly as usual in my class ... LOL ... Its ok to reduce and eat my marks , but please , dont give me your unacceptable reason or EXCUSE kay?! OMG ...who you think you are ?! you are just a poor , ugly and old teacher~~!Oh My f8cking god!!! Im so angry till dare to tear my exam paper in front of her!!!! Damn you!!!!! wahahahahahahahahahah XD

Tomorrow, will have lunch with Jiba Goh ...wahaha^_^ i havent seen her for long time ! Really miss Jibas ....T_T

Okay... im sleepy now although it is just 9.20 pm~~~!O.o Im old already so need more sleep nowadays....=) so , good night ~~! muackkkzzzzzz~~~^o^
p/s:Ｍiss the time that i had in Langkawi .... Wanna go there again or maybe other island ~~~ ^_^

Langkawi ～～×

2010-09-12T20:31:00.001-07:00

still got so many picture but im lazy to post here already...Please refer to my facebook kay?! hehe....^_^ muackkkkkzzzzzz=)XD

Im Home ～～×

2010-09-11T21:30:00.000-07:00

Came back from Langkawi last night. This was a good trip if there isn't some problem but ,as we know, problems are always a major part of life so ,why not?! ^_^

We have luckily booked a great but cheap resort (Its Federal Villa). There is a white , long and beautiful sea just in front of our resort . Besides, many specially designed shops, cafes , restaurants and pubs near our resorts . however, we still explore almost all over the island by our Waja there...^_^Thats great!

Then, this duty free island made us spent our money just like drinking the water !!! BuT fortunately ,im a good girl so ,i hadnt bankrupt there... still enough money to buy a return ticket and no need to swim from Langkawi to Kuala Kedah ...hahahaha... There is only RM 1 left in my purse after got my ticket....>.<

Its actually nothing so interesting if you spent 3days in the main Island so , i strongly recommend the Island hopping tour .Each person need Rm25 only and we will go to 3 famous place out of Langkawi . We have amazed by the wonderful scenery and beach there !!!

Then, there are some pictures captured by my Hand phone during the tour. There are still many more in others cameras but they haven't uplaod yet ,so i will just post them here next time... ^_^ Enjoy and Happy Holiday ... !
p/s: Peace~~!=)

The Catcher in The Rye～～×

2010-09-07T05:50:00.000-07:00

Thanks Annelise to lend me this book and its really amazing ~~! The writer figured out the inner of a teenager or the young guys by his simple but amusing writing skill . I think i do know myself more after finished this book in less than 2 hours !But the main reason of my speedy reading is ,mine one is chinese edition ... hehe ...

On the other hands , i feel a bit nervous or maybe its some kinda of excitement now. Its time to pack my stuff and try the clothes . It should be an extremely happy and satisfying job but now , im unhappy whenever i think about those unfamiliar "friends" who will join our trip to Langkawi . What the **** ?!!!?!!? i feel like want to pour those harsh word on the guys . But why should i do that? how can i feel so angry with their existence? I dont really know . MAYBE im really tired to deal with those pushy people around me . just MAYBE la... i think=.=

ehem ..... Im happy and lucky ... I should be happy and smile widely now or even bumping here and there because im going to Langkawi ... Okay , i will . And im not COMPLAINING ! hehe , im just sharing my feeling kay?! Then , +u to everyone who is sitting for their exam , Happy holiday to those who are going to have a trip too !!!! ^_^

p/s: I strongly recommend "The catcher in the rye " to you guys !!! Its great!!! =)And you will know how to treat some special kind of people like ME better ~~

H.O.L.I.D.A.Y ～～×

2010-09-04T06:58:00.000-07:00

OH yeah ~~~ ! its holiday now~~~! a ten day holiday!!! wahahahaahahahahaha.... How excited am i...=)

Actually ,i dun really have many outing or event in this holiday , just the Langkawi trip . But ,its great enough to stuck in home and doing nothing . No need to wake up early in the morning as usual , no need to listen to the boring lesson , no need to wear uniform and etc... These things really mean suck to me ... hehe^_^
And the about the trip , there were some unpleasant change that really make me down . Im really tired to deal with those pushy and ya ,i will learn to ... but ,i able to force myself to used to it and try not be be mad or angry by those things .... I will try my best to annoy those obstacle and imagine my trip will be perfect enough , that those bad things will convert into good one , those unlucky thing to me will make everything even better or etc la.... See im so POSITIVE now ...BLEK~~~

Besides ,i have started my piano course again. I do really love piano but i not really like my piano teacher ...=) LOL ...I believe that everyone wont believe that im Grade 6 now ... =.= (except my Alicia mum) I swear , its true ~~~ lalalalalala .... I know , my certificate of piano exam can place in the " Believe it or not " collection ... XD whatever ~~~

Ok ... its time to day dreaming already , so i gotta go now...^_^ haPpY HoLIdAY ~~~

p/s : Life is really wonderful if you determine it bright side ~~ ^_^ I have learnt this ... so im happy now ~~~!

Inspiration for me～～×

2010-08-30T06:05:00.000-07:00

Amazing video for me ... Really...i have watched this for two times but still felt like want to cry ...
He's a superman ! Doesnt he?! Awwww .... i want to apologize to everyone who have gone through my emo posts and idiot complain before ... im really blind or stupid as i din realise how lucky and happy am i now!!! Sorry ~~~T_T

This guy in the video is really an great inspiration for me .I will never simply complain anymore , i swear ....^_^

p/s :OH MAN ~~~! ^_^

pp/ss : i did very badly in my MUET reading paper today...blek~~~ =)

Working ... brain Stucking ... notes-eating～～×

2010-08-28T06:34:00.000-07:00

I online too frequently recently. Not because of im so free but i have to do those research and booking things for our Langkawi Trip~~ Hehe...^_^

Next Monday, my first exam in Form 6 start.Everyone in my class like having a war with American or facing the end of the world...(hehe...hyperbola...)But me , still steam steam ,eating during the period and sleep when there is a free period...=.=... LOL...im ready to get the "Good" ranking in my class ...Watever...

But still i have to do something just to avoid the guilty feeling in me...T_T So, besides sticking my eyes on computer ,i worked very hard to key in the notes into my memory space in my brain too... Haha ,such a good girl huh?! Ya lah , a chinese idiom said that :适可而止... Why we have to work so hard to get number 1 or four flat in our exam ?! Nah~~~ the 12As girl is also steam steam now in form 6 what?! But the 10As or even 8As have flied to the matrix or got the JPA liao lo... =.= ...
p/s: hana, im not complaining la ...just joking with you guys ~~~ha.ha.ha , so funny ...=.=

So , what i really looking for is the TRIP !!!yay ~~~ to Langkawi !!! What should i wear huh?! And can i go there or eat that or try that?! How is the scenery there?! These are the only questions that i think about these day... ^_^haha ...

Okay lah... Just dun want to make my bloggy mossy so update a simple post here...Bye!=)

p/s: Beach ,Sun and sea ...Im coming to hug you guys~~~!

My officially 18th 's Day~~×

2010-08-22T05:37:00.000-07:00

Hohoho~~~ im 18!!! i really felt so happy about the small and simple party that my friends held for me yesterday night....^o^And the presents are really great . Thanks for you guys who have wrote yours wishes in the booklet .I really appreciate it !Im really suprise when i go through the content and found so many people wrote in it!!! credit to Kahlen Neow , i really 猜到也不知道as you said ....hehe...Im still happy until now~~~ =)

And my Alicia mum made a great video for me too ! I really love it ,love it badly ! Especially this sentence :我们不会因为你的坚强独立，而忘了其实你也会害怕寂寞... Awwwww ~~~ you really know my mind and Thank you ~~~^^

Shhhhhhh ...tell you a secret here .I went to Tao lounge with my friends too ! We have beers but i swear i have just drank 2 cups of them and i found i really used to beers.... hehe....im happy because that was my first time and im glad to had my friends together too.... the singers there sang birthday song for me and also wished me too! Im like on top the moon !!!

Then today , 182 friends wish me via facebook !!! I have'nt been like this before in my life . Im shocked when i logged in to my account today and found out my account was full ! Really thanks to everyone who wished me ...I cant thanks to you guys individually but i really mean it , in my deepest heart ...T_T Thanks guys...

Furthermore , i got two angpaos from my grandma and my mum plus one Rocky snack from my young cousin... ^^ so warm and sweet huh?! hehe...

Im really super duper triper time infinity happy !!!! This will be the most memorable birthday in my life ! Im idiot ! How can i complaint so much some days before ?!I got those precious things!!! Okay,im freaking idiot ,i know....^_^

Thank you again and Happy Birthday to myself ~~~! Im officially 18 NOW ~~~! wahahahaahhahaahhaahahha............

Its my August ～～×

2010-08-18T05:46:00.000-07:00

I miss jibas and those day when we always do everything together BADLY ... Thats one of the things i worry about when i go through all the precious photos in my albums . I know i will drown in the old and passed happy life and memories again. because i love them ....

I have done the video which is the birthday present to MeiMei (teacher Teh Mei Lee). i used up almost 3 days to make this video ... OMG! its a bit to long for making a video but im still glad that i could finished it...Luckily, MeiMei like it so much ! ^_^ She sent a sweet and touch message for many of us and that undeniably ,a good feed back to my hard works ... Thanks god!!!

Y i said its my August ?! because i always feel better in this month and so do i now ... maybe i have more events in this month or maybe im LEO ...^^ you know what?!I feel like i have became wiser and mentally more mature now... At least i can bear and deal with someone bossy or too proud of himself ... Omg!!! you cant even think about how difficult it is ... its killing me!!!

ok... thats nothing special to write since im studying form 6 now and as we know ,Form 6 is a totally bore ,fixed and normal phrase that usually wasting our young and time . So , good bye , Good night and good August to you too !!! ^_^

p/s: Our headmaster wished me happy birthday on facebook yesterday !!! How glad am i!!! ^_^although its a bit earlier .... ^_^

Girl of Sun and Rain God ～～×

2010-08-10T06:34:00.000-07:00

Again , dropping my tear quietly in front of the computer like a lost girl ... Those comments in my chat box were knocking on my heart and hold it strong with warm and love ... Thanks is not enough for those precious words so i could only say : " I love you guys!!! "

From Jiba (Yi Xuan) : we are LEO ! so we no need other light source or others gift ,because we would glow ourselves .WE ARE THE SUN ..... Ya... Im the sun ! I nearly forgot this pride of myself .I used to behave like this before but how about now ?! What am i doing? Raining ?!

From Neri :,You have the right to enjoy happiness too ! One day you'll have it too and it'll then be other people admiring or jealous-ing you cherrio yeahh ! Neri...i not really want someone to admire or jealous me la... But you are so energetic and sweet , like a girl (i meant a real young girl that doesnt like me...^^ ) And your simple words is just more than enough to clear all those negative things in my minds ...Really ! thats y i like your blog so much !!! ^_^ Keep it up !!!

from Jiba QingZhuang : 我生日的时候就算没有人记得，就算没有蛋糕，我也硬硬要拿蜡烛来吹...Thanks for providing me such a perfect way to celebrate my Birthday . Okay , i will accept those candles from you as my b'day present!!! You just make me laugh in tears when i read your message .... like an insane one sitting there and then cry plus laugh together ! I like your Jiba-ish badly and i really want to meet you !!! >.< style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 204, 255);">Mum Alicia :always rmb tat '我们都是公主'.. ^^　我们都在用自己的方式幸福着。。 Im always so happy to have your comment here ... im glad that you r still following my blog ....*so touch * .... And you r the only one who said im a princess =.= ~~~ haha...... i want to be a queen though !!! ^_^

I think my Emo have became more serious as my tears secrete faster and more than before recently.... what am i doing ?!! its bad to lose my strong and tough personality . I need it urgently ! I am the girl of sun and Rain !!! i always comfort me by this kind of imaginary .... And i need a shoulder . I think . Im tired to be a strong and capable girl ... I have that image since im still in my standard 1 ... So What to do ?!

I will be alright , for sure .... Eamaleh ~~~ qingZhuang said this^_^

*She is the Princess i mentioned in my last post ...c , im always the one who catch their happy moment ...*

*The competition on Saturday*

p/s : HapPy jIBa's DAy ~~！！！to my beloved Jibas... ^^

幸福～～×

2010-08-07T06:34:00.000-07:00

又是一个自己一个人对着电脑，听着yiruma的钢琴乐时不时偷偷流泪的晚上。。。今天早上我还兴奋地说，"today is my day..." 但是几个小时后。。。。唉。。。。。。

今天，班花是黎科吟的生日，也是我们才艺比赛的日子。。。对于比赛，我只想说：“去死！！！”
而黎科吟，他真的是全世界最幸福的小公主。你大概能想象得到的惊喜桥段，全都在今天发生在她的身上了。。。例如：身边许多好友秘密录制的祝贺影片（是她男朋友的心血！），男朋友迪强从新加坡飞到这里来给她惊喜，还送来一束粉红色玫瑰花以及面子书上超过百名朋友的祝贺。。。但是。。。

我很替她开心也替他觉得很窝心，但是我很嫉妒。我真的很妒忌她所拥有的一切。她是应得的。她很善良，对人又无怨无悔的（就是只会傻傻付出的那种人），她天真，单纯，没有心机，交友旷阔等等。。。她是一个活生生的天使，反观我自己，我实在没有理由去妒忌，去获得这种宠爱，这种幸福。。。我，凭什么。。。

羽晶今天问我说，我曾几何时开始变得那么没有自信的啊。我也不知道。或许我说的那些对我自己的评语并不是没有自信的表现，而是事实。。。我，凭什么？。。。。。。

p/s: 我唯一记得的生日会（也是唯一的一场）是在我十三岁的时候（五年前），之后，可能二十六岁那年我会为我自己办一场，现在。。。算了。。。。

pp/ss:好想死了算了。。。

Forever 2+1（years old) ～～×

2010-08-01T06:40:00.000-07:00

Here's the scary and maybe yucky story began ...

Its a very good day . The sky is in the beautiful light blue and the cloud shape up into whatever thing you could imagine in your brain ...

There is a old and dirty and outdated Science lab in a damnly stupid high school which is located in a quiet but not peaceful suburb . Two cute and pretty girls are the only normal mortal in the school as no one really dare to enter the school ,not even the gangsters or great bullies around the area ,because there is a super duper ugly monster in the school since many years ago!!!! Only doggies could deal with her and stay around her ...

This two pity girl dont know about this story before... They have forced by the the minister that always discriminate beautiful girl to complete their study and also their project in this danger place ......

They start their experiment once they stepped into the lab and found a table that is cleaner .Everything goes well and nothing strange happen . But suddenly ,the smaller girl (mean body size here) ,Neow start to do something unpleasant and the bigger girl (of course the body size here) , Anger shocked by her action ! Neow hold her insect which is prepared by themselves in order to carry out the experiment with her bare hands!!! Normally , people hold it with maybe forceps , pins or knifes or at least gloves but Neow hold it and get the inner parts of the insect out with her own hands!!!!!

Anger sensed this horror things at the moment and to protect herself she has to do something she had never done before ... first ,prepare some formalin .

Then .try to stuck it into some strategic place such as head .

But ,Anger failed .Neow has a too big , hard and powerful head .so ,we have to look for some place else .Ah hah～～ her neck!!!

Finally,she got it!!! Neow faint and the monster trick failed!!! Without wasting any second , they escape from the school and then never visit this mystery school AGAIN ....
They finally have a happy and delightful life forever .... THE END ...

p/s: blek~~~ Neri ,this is the "interesting "story that you longed for!!! wahahahahahaha...some more the pictures are quite interesting too...

pp/ss: This is the reason for my post title ....(childish and nonsense...) ^_^

Good Night and Ciao ～～～×

2010-07-31T07:06:00.000-07:00

im here and starring the same page of the dashboard and then decided to write nothing...

How lazy am i?!

OMG....

But i promise , tomorrow i will post an interesting story here!!! Everything is in my head actually but ...im too lazy to type... (Maybe...)

Rainy day here.... I love it badly....

Going to have my breakfast in McD tomorrow morning with my lovely friends .Dun warn me about the weight issue ... Putting on weight ain't something bad for me ,because im fat enough now so its doen't matter to become fatter and fatter and fatter and then ....... hate myself then maybe suicide in the end .... haha... WHATEVER～～×

p/s: Have a horrible new haircut but so what? ... im already fall in this damnly bad form 6 so , what to care about ? .im used to be ugly in my previous life wat?! haha...WHATEVER!!!!!!!!

宅一下～～

2010-07-22T05:19:00.000-07:00

嗯。。。思考的有点久了，写不出来该写的东西。。。只好简略的，稍微的，交代一下（好像没有人要我交代。。。^_^)

我不爽，因为：
1）明天又检查头发咯！感觉自已很犯贱，几岁了？！！！还要给那几只检查头发？！白痴。。。而且我的头发也超标了！在想着该怎样塞。。。白痴。。。

2）数学老师真的很烂！！！有点接近初中的程度了吧！我的天哪！！！

3）我正在改造着我的思想与态度，就是一些内涵的深度啦（有点做作。。。）学习着如何磨棱擦角，去跟一些真的很霸道的人相处。学习如何忍耐那些打肿脸皮充胖子的自大狂，以及那些脆弱的好像被风吹也会碎掉的人。。。然后观察人与人之间相处时，那些白痴与荒谬的结果。。。这是一件十分非常超级难的事，明白吗？有些人就是一辈子都不可能去做这样的事，所以我不止智商很高噢，我的情绪管理也不错（最好是这样啦！！！！>.<）

我很爽，因为：
1）下个星期六要参加才艺比赛咯！和班花科吟还有豆花文惠一起表演钢琴伴奏与合唱噢。。。我爱唱歌！！！我爱音乐！！！所以就算要我这两个星期里面把声音练沙哑，弹琴弹得手指抽筋，我还是很爽！！！哇哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。

2）我时间真的很多，多的足够让我胡思乱想。有时想到发慌时，就不爽，但是有时间就应该爽，因为我也不知道我及时会忙到连动脑都嫌烦。。。

3）打雷囖！要下雨咯！好兴奋好爽啊！！！！！！！

总的来说，我真的有点厌倦了对着别人笑的日子。我在学习如何掩饰我的情绪低落。但是，情绪总会从我的表情显露无遗。。。我是爽的，因为我该把握当下（班花教的。）很想说，个屁！！！

p/s:我是爽的咯！！！唉～～～

p/ss:白痴！！！！！！！

Its the time～～×

2010-07-16T06:56:00.000-07:00

I have already fall out from my depression . I think .Everything seems to be different from now on .Im the chairman of the Counselling Club ...(Hurray!!!) Should i ? And i joined the Koperasi club also ,to be a salesgirl + cleaner in the recess time . Our stupid project will start soon ,yet ,we have to stay in the school until 2.30pm ...Damnly unacceptable actually ,but what to do?!

Maybe those hassle things are one of the important matter to clear my depression and disappointment .Its the time ,I think ...to have a new life and a new starting point , to start everything over .Its life ,we always end in the pain but start with the dream ... Isnt it?! ^_^ But unfortunately , i lost all my target ,dream and objective now .Everytime when i have the chance to have a wish , no even one wish will come across my mind . Thats weird ,and maybe sad ... I want nothing ,though , have nothing too....

Its the time ... So , what am i waiting for?! I should have forgot everything and create another ME ... Am i right?! erm... I dun think so ....××

p/s: Tomorrow is our Canteen Day!!! But food will make me fat die ... WHATEVER~~~ ^_^

pp/ss :there r three ppl that praise me in the school today !!! (they said im pretty...*.*) OMG~~~ How happy am i !!!!!!! ^o^

Good Day～～^…^

2010-07-10T06:40:00.000-07:00

When the wind blow and the yellow leaves dance together ,
when the sun shine and reflect the happiness into my eyes until my heart ,
when then sound of downpour move the lyric of my soul ,

I found my ideal life that i had longed for . Im happy with the peace .Its a good day , like which i had in my childhood . Its an amazing song of mine , like which i played for a thousand time , but still have some deep feeling about it , entitled my life ..

.Its a good day !

p/s : I have finished my debate competition ,finished all my homework , cut down my meals , cut down emo , and hang around with JIBA ... Its good ...

pp/ss : Its some kind of upliftment in mood ~~~^_^

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse Official Trailer 2 [FM]

2010-07-07T06:17:00.000-07:00

Really long for it!!! Woohoo~~~ So excited to watch even it is just a trailer ! OMG... Eclipse , Im coming to you ...SOON! ^_^

Nothing is better than my life～～×

2010-07-06T06:08:00.000-07:00

YUP ! A drastic change in mood today . Maybe because of the lunch that i had today with JunJiao , Eugene ,Annelise , Eugene's sister and a boy that i dont even know who is he after school. Or thats because i have eaten so many delicacy such as TomYam Noodle in Mama Curry Rice (There only have 1 food about curry but others=.=) , Milky green tea , steam fish by my mum , fried rice in school and something that i cant remember any more... Or ,it may be caused by the preparation of a debate competition recently , as it make my life full and more meaningful .

Moreover , tomorrow is HOLIDAY !!!! How good is it ^_^ I planned to swim tomorrow morning and maybe shopping in afternoon . But i still need some time to twist my brain on the debate title ... Whatever ^_^

Now only im glad that im single . Because i no need to use up my limited time to adhere to my boyfriend . I no need to complain about my boyfriend or annoyed by some small quarrel which have happened on one of my close friend .When , i need someone's shoulder to support my sadness, i will look forward to my best best friend .This best best friend is really a great and priceless friend that i never had before . I feel like the luckiest person in the world to have her as my best best friend ~~~ ^_^ Therefor , One is better than two !!!

Having improvement in my language skills is the other thing that worth to be happy . Although when i asked JunJiao about this question , he answered me :" Maybe you are but for me there have no any different lo! " Haha , quite a cruel comment ^_^ but suprisingly , i accept it with a smile . thats one of the things that i have learnt from the fall a month before . Ya, i think so ...

Occupy my life with homework is a really effective way to bring myself away from the pain . Taking some amazing photo will make the beautiful scene stop in my mind easily and thus pay more attention on the beauty of the world and life. Laugh loudly with my beloved friends and talk everything with them without any theme will drop down some precious scene in my blanket of memory . Listen to others more than protest their words . I must learnt to be a gentle girl instead of a hot-tempered bitch . i must learn to enjoy the disappointment in my life and try not to be too eager for triumph .

Im learning . Learning to live , learning to turn into a new leave. im trying to live a fullest life , and also a colorful young story about ME ~~~ × ^_^

p/s : Happy Holiday ~~~! tomorrow =.=

A dream～～×

2010-07-03T07:28:00.000-07:00

Im here but you cant read my tear at all ...
Its raining here but you cant feel my coolness at all ...
Its breaking into pieces but you cant heard the sound of crush at all...
I do not wish to yell or shout or cry at anyone , so i just stand still in the perfect silent corner , like a statue ... Im standing here , to tell every passer by my stupid and painful story... it mean nothing to anyone of the world actually ... so , im just looking forward to become clever enough , to relief myself and forget everything ...

Then , i will feel stupid and regret about my sadness before . I will tease myself to being so emo and behave like a crazy dog that keep barking to the wall ...
Everything will become a dream , or, a nightmare . Im still here , looking at myself ,speechless . The world is big enough to hide my dream and my feeling , but not enough to fill my emptiness .

Ya....emo again... SO WHAT!!! HAHA...im laughing to myself !

p/s: Good night , girl! Nice to meet you , nightmare!

干嘛？！

2010-06-26T06:50:00.000-07:00

唉。。。真的不想这样过着掩饰自己的每一天。很惭愧啊！身为辩论员，却还是不够聪明，去想通到底是怎么一回事，我在干嘛？！

今天，又帮我妈载送工人了。是啊，你没有看错啊！我是帮我妈载工人啦！我这个自以为是王后的狮子座女生，现在不是了！我在干嘛？！我这个曾经是人人羡慕的“顶尖”学生，现在也不是了。现在每个遇到我的人有九十九巴仙吧，都会问我：“你为什么这么想不开要去读中六啊？！”哈。。。为什么？我也想知道为什么。。。

“命生到不好咯！”这是我的答案。

当然，这是一种情绪化的表现。每当我伤心地寻求别人的安慰时，很多人给我的安慰是：“哎哟，你没有那么不幸福啦！你想看还有很多人比你更惨啊！有些人连吃喝住都顾不到了，你看你，至少还穿的好吃的好啊！有些人连书都没有的读了，你看你，至少还有书读耶。。。”

是啊！我看我，连自怜自艾的资格都没有，只因为我不是最可怜那个。。。有时候觉得这真的是一个不成文的道理，就因为这样，我的失去就不能算是失去，我的难过就什么都不是吗？传世界就只有第三世界的人可以哭泣，值得安慰，那我就应该任由失败与不公平打在我的人生上，而不能做声吗？

是啊。。。很矛盾的一点。应该只有我这种情绪化到极点的怪胎才会去探讨的一个课题。当然，你可以觉得我很过分，说出这种灭绝人性，伤天害理，有违伦理，大逆不道，十恶不赦，人鬼公愤的话（好像没有那么严重。。。），但是，身为一名情绪化的辩论员，我能够接受我提出这样的一个论点。。。因为，情绪化万岁！！！奇葩万岁！！！

好了！纯粹是太过于无法释怀了，太多的情绪出现在脑海里，才会这样。我没有想到原来我还没有痊愈的，只是早上的一点小到得用望远镜才看得到的现实，竟让我那么敏感，继而让我发现我自己严重的情绪化原来还是老样子。。。

颓废中。。。×

p/s: 情绪化万岁！！！！

Start to become a new one～～×

2010-06-19T07:58:00.000-07:00

Today is a quiet and peaceful rainy day for me . No more serious emo , no more bad news , and no more dissapointment . Its simple and nice . It let me feel like im having some gaps to definate again what is mean by happy to me ... Its just like a starting of a brand new life for me but it wont be so easy ... i think...

Well, the dramatic 2-weeks holiday have gone and today i went back to the yucky school . Its the toughest holiday that i have never ever had before. Its just 2 weeks but i felt like i have already passed about one or two months . So , i always try to memberized what have i done in my holiday that made it so full till i cant even finish my homeworks!!! wahahaha^_^

1) I worked as a part timer again in the Ekspo in Seberang Jaya .Im a photographer there... hehe! Its very interesting for me and it must be the best choice to make some pocket money
to pay for the movies and outings myself...

2)I do many revision and hard works for FCE exam! I gained a lot of the English skills from this and this is the most useful thing that i have done in my holiday...

3)Hiking at Bukit Tukun and visit to Nyonya Heritage in Penang was the most exciting one! Of course we always join in some delicacy in our outing...^_^

4)Secret Recipe ...AGAIN...with my pretty cousin... just want to make myself die fat........

5)My great grandmother funeral....in chinese traditional i have to wear a white t-shirt with a red colour ribbon on it...

6) Go through all my e-mails and stick my eyes on the tv and i gain alot af technique to loss weight...O.o

7)Dreaming in my beautiful evening or maybe end with some snacks...haiz...

Just want to share all the pictures took in my holidays and this is my post today . See you next time! ^=^

p/s: SOOOOO happy to saw Neri and Yen Ling in the school today... they have became so mature and different...Best wishes to both af you!!!

Tear's Season～～×

2010-06-17T23:03:00.000-07:00

Finally,my(family's) new computer had arrived when i was having my dinner yesterday. Its black in colour that make it looks so cool and im glad that its with Window 7!!! OMG!I had already suffered with my old computer for a long time and i do really hope this new creature can make my use of computer become an enjoyable and happy activity without complain and furiousity...

I have had some very tough day during my previous week.I feel so bad to say that i had cried in those difficult days as i am suppose to be tougher but not weaker ...But everything just goes wrong!!! WTF...

My great-grandmother passed away on last Sunday. I felt sad to hear this because it make me thought about so many things. I din cry for this but im still sad. Its some kind of sad , which come from the bottom of my heart and i cant even express it through any kind of emotion.Its just sad...

My elder brother is now moving into The Sungai Petani Hospital( if i have no mistaken)and doctor said he may need to live in hospital for a longer period as he is still unable to breath by himself normally. Thanks to all of my friend that still take care about him and he will be ok soon...I think...

My appeal to the scholarship fail again and i think this should be the last hope for me but now it just got away from my life ...I had forced myself to believe that i cant get that scholarship forever but i still cant stop myself from falling into a great disappointment...its time to wake up and go back to the damn Form 6 life , i know.But just.... i hate myself and hate my destiny (at least i think that this fact had been written in my destiny since i was born) to make everyone around me feel disappointed... OMG!!! I hate my life!!!

I have finished my FCE exam last Tuesday and i have not did as well as i have expected before but whatever lah! I have no mood to bother about it now.My life was already worse enough so the result wont affect much on me.Chiao...

And recently , most of the jiba were so emo .I know the feeling so well as im suffering in it now too.I miss jibas and i need jibas so much but we shouldn't always follow our feeling but we have to work very super duper hard now...thats for our future! QingZhuang , everything will be alright and this is just some kind of emotion that we cant handle it for a while.The truth wasn't cruel like how you thought and the most important thing is your JIBAS wont forget you FOREVER !!! Yeah, just believe it...^_^

Thats all for now . Still have many things that cant actually speak it out clearly , but i just need to used to it . Tears must be the best medicine to cure me... i think...but its not my image at all! Haha...whatever~~~

p/s : Tear's season now~~~

Dismal day～～×

2010-06-01T06:41:00.000-07:00

Its a quiet and peace dismal day again. The scorching air had been blown away by the strong wind and some cool breeze was invited to here. The cool wind blown onto my skin and this made me felt so fresh and calm in my mind ... Besides, a little bit excited hormone was produced too ! I think...

I have said before that i love dismal day soooo much . Dont know why ,it sometime make me touch and im just feel like i had reached the Heaven in my mind ...Every things become so romantic and beautiful~~

My life have had a little bit changes after the silly Math teacher who i hate so much left our school yesterday ... Its a bad thing to say that we felt so happy when we heard this " good" news and even wanted to have a class party! (Naughty Student^_^) But of course we dont ... Hehe...

Furthermore , i feel more relax when i think about the two weeks holiday soon!!! woohoo... Its is so nice for me because i no need to wake up at 6 something and then listen to such a bored lesson in the class . Hehe... i can blogging , face-booking , watching television for whole day long , reading my difficult EMMA (i will try very hard on it!) , playing piano enjoying the OPUS classical music and more excited things!!!OMG ! it make me so happy when i think n plan about it...dont you?! ^_^

However , my FCE test is around the corner too and i have to put more effort on it . Shhhhh ... tell you a secret , my English was worse enough... wahahaha! you can find it from my poor post la! haha! BUT i can feel that my English skills are improving and i am a little bit proud about it. hehe ... (praise me praise me=)) I will keep working in brushing up my English and i enjoy my hard work to move towrds my target!!! woohoo... Life is being so great with a target and dream～～～×D

Ok ... i am going to leave now... thanks my friends that gave me so much support before , specially Qingzhuang, Jiba Yi Xuan and Neri ... Im fine now with your words and of course i will keep going because im a LEO girl that strong enough!!!

ｐ／ｓ：This post is a little bit formal.... HeHe ... because im happy and peace now... so S- M-I-L-E～～～ ×

pp/ss: I love dismal day^o^

急转弯～～×

2010-05-29T06:39:00.000-07:00

有好阵子了吧，没来这里。因为懒惰，因为激动，因为失望，当然也因为我的这台古董电脑。不过这几天，发生了很多很多的事情，也是我人生的一个重要的挫折。。。

21/5 星期五：

是时候了，重要的决定就在今天的下午三点揭晓了。我显得莫名的兴奋，虽然我真的很努力的去说服自己别抱有太大的希望，但是朋友的言语及种种的征兆显示，我得到这公共服务局的奖学金的机会很大。三点了，打开电脑，可惜网络爆满，我这台古董电脑无法上网。没关系先睡一下吧！傍晚六点，打开电脑，打开网址，输入密码后，等待已久的成绩就在眼前。“ Kami tidak dapat menawarkan biasiswa kepada saudari... " 第一个反应就是关了电脑，脑袋一片空白地通过短信通知好友这个重大的消息，过后打给正在医院照顾哥哥的妈妈，告诉她我失败了。。。

当这句话从我的口中说出来时，我开始感觉到我的失落，我的沮丧，而我的眼泪也即刻沿着脸庞，滑了下来，坠到地上。。。

22/5 星期六：

原本是个很漂亮浪漫的早晨，天空灰灰的，没有阳光，却也没有风，一切很安静，很平静。这是我最爱的早晨。我原本就喜欢灰灰的天色，因为这样有点像是在天堂的感觉，很舒服，很舒服。我带着肿得像外星人一样的眼睛，静静地坐在门口放空。偶尔，还是会不小心流出眼泪，但我发誓，是不小心的！

此外，很多朋友开始发些询问的短信，个个都以为我会有好消息，结果令他们失望了。。。

23/5 星期日：

心脏有点回复心跳了，很好，眼睛也不肿了。只是斗志还是消失了，欢乐还是没有回来。。。下定决心，面对失败与梦想的破灭。看些安慰心灵的小说吧！哈哈。。。听起来很可笑，但是倒也还蛮有用的，这也是我最近到处去向人推荐的一本书，叫做《微笑送给打击你的人》（Smiling To Someone Who Hurts You) 。它是有安慰了我不少，也让我学到了许多的英文生字^_^。。。

24/5 星期一：

清晨六点，被几个朋友的短信吵醒，他们催促我检查Matrix的成绩。当然，他们也以为我应该是得定了的。但是，结果是"Rayuan saudari tidak berjaya... "。。。麻木的感觉，让我无言，也再一次彻底的把我的希望给摔得粉碎。。。决定了不去学校，因为我不确定我是否能承受同学们以及老师的眼光。我不喜欢这样，所以决定逃避一天好了。。。

和乐观天才，羽晶，一起到处走走，静一静。我们到荒山野岭拍照，闲逛，去找一些老朋友兼前同事，试图找寻以前的快乐感觉。唯一的好消息就是我变瘦了，拍摄技术也进步了。无可否认我是个天才，一个情绪化也没有人认同的天才。。。

×我的作品×

×谢啦！羽晶～～×

25/5 - 27/5 星期二至星期四：

上学了，开始到那间有点恶心的学校上课了。当我踏进课室时，我如预期般地听到了同学说：“喂！琪祯来了。。。”哈哈。。。我很受关注呢～～～

接下来的几天，我渐渐地让自己适应中六的学习生活。让超友善的辅导老师辅导了超过一个小时，终于也确定了自己的方向与心情。我终于也放下了所谓的失望与沮丧。

29/5 星期六：

这个星期真得很漫长，好像已经过了一个月一样。我，失去了很多，也想了很多。我，下定决心要让那些放弃我的人后悔。我，这个没有人认同的天才就不相信没有了这次的机会，我就没有了所有希望。我，狮子座女生即使是哭得很惨之后，也绝对会努力得很惨！！！我，向每一位关心我的朋友师长道谢，也正式宣布，我已经大笑着站起来了！哇哈哈哈哈哈哈～～～

p/s:我认真起来，连我自己都怕呢！

pp/ss : sorry Neri , i cant meet you there~~~*

Beautiful ～～×

2010-05-15T21:24:00.000-07:00

This girl in the picture is not me , although someone said that we look similar... hehe ,its my pleasure ~~~because she is the most beautiful girl in our school ^_^ we call her school flower in chinese that is 校花。

Everyone including me like to see those beautiful things . So, i kindly post it here and just want to share with all of you . Hope you will like it...=)

Its Sunday and my mood is definately great ! I can stuck in my lovely sofa or just in front of my disguist computer and waste my time in doing nothing ... Its very difficult for me to have such a relax time recently because my Form six study had started last week .I have to put a lot of effort on it as it is not an easy things to do...

Tommorow is also a holiday too! I feel like want to hang out with my friends but actually i have no idea about what i want to do ... My elder brother is still in the hospital as his illness change frequently ... Stupid doctor , they didnt do much to my brother as he had stayed there for more than 2 weeks already . I cant go around as i pleased because i need to help my parent in their business and take care of my younger brother at home... I cant complained anything because i know clearly about my family situation now ... its annoying...

Well , JPA scholarship will come out in this week ! It make me a little bit nervous because i really want it! Im eagerly want to study at top college in our country and even top University in Australia!!! Hey Neri , maybe i can meet you there... [ Jusy dreaming Just dreaming] @.@ Hope i no need to cry when i know the result ... wahahaha^_^

That all for today , because im hungry now ^.^ Its lunch time and food make me happier!!! Cheer up everyone !!! Wherever you are study now , just appreciate it ! And i will always miss you T.T ... Hope you all the success in your future ! MY　ＦＲＩＥＮＤＳ　！！！

p/s: I miss all of my friends...

路口～～×

2010-05-11T05:58:00.000-07:00

很明显，我变了。。。变美，变瘦，变性感？！随便啦！见仁见智，有也好，没有也好，都不重要。。。重要的是，我的生活变了。从单纯幸福的高中生活，到反复的考试冲刺，过后，假期渡假，到打工挣钱，拿成绩单，选择未来，一直到现在的中六生活开始，我面对的改变，对一个未满十八的花样少年来说，是巨大的。。。

每一次的难关与烦恼，我都会对自己说，过了这个障碍，你就会得到你要的幸福与美好的，但是显然的，我没有。。。这些难过的日子，无疑只是在为我的年轻增添更多皱着眉头过的日子。我不喜欢，但是我愿意接受，因为，我了解，我正踌躇在一个路口。这是每个人的生命线条，也是每个人的必经之路。。。

但是，如果只是站在路口徘徊不定的话，我不会这样脆弱，甚至伤感。我会突然的，就像一夜之间地长大，却是因为我的路口最近下雨咯！下了好大好大的暴风雨哦！不只有风还有闪电哪！满伤心的，什么鬼天气啊！害我就算是跌到了，也要忍受着伤口被雨水淋湿的痛，继续伪装着坚强地走下去。害我就算是伤心地落下眼泪了，别人也不会察觉到，而施舍我一个宽阔的肩膀。。。

我，一个狮子座的女生，一个不爱动不动就寻找男生庇护的女生，早就适应了这样的日子。。。早就习惯了，就算我有多么的想倒下也好，我都还是需要去支持另外一堆人，继续去扛起一堆的责任。。。你说我夸张吗？随便。。。我不需要去说服你，明白吗？！

偷偷说出来吧：我昨晚做了个梦。梦中有一个男生闯进了我的生活，坚决地握着我的手，说什么都不放。那是，我能感觉到无尽的安全感与幸福。。。我不知道那个人是谁，也不知道他干嘛握着我的手，但是我能清晰的感觉到那种感觉，就是我一直在寻找的一种安全感，直到梦醒了，我还能记得，那种感觉。。。

是天使吗？他来安慰我的？！也许吧。。。谢啦！神仙，谢啦！天使。。。我爱你们^_^

很废吗？这篇。这是我在路口写下的心情日记，谢谢你们的收看，再见～～～×

p/s:新的同班同学都很好，但我还是讨厌中六！！！各位，请帮我祈祷哇！！！！！

忙，sibuk ，busy～～×

2010-04-28T06:24:00.000-07:00

Since i have to take my FCE( First Certificate in English) exam soon , i would like to do some practice by posting those poor English blog post to u all... If u felt sakit mata , just use some eyesmo ...If u felt tis was not bad ,then thanks for ur forgiveness n kind lo~~~

I have had a quite busy life recently,(Dunno Y) mayb more friends of mine r going to their colleges soon or my relative were really free these day , i always invited by them to go here n there even eat this n that ... But i like this type of lifestyle as i felt im still a useful people for the world cuz i can move ,eat, shout n take many many nonsence photo ...^_^

Guess what i have ate in this week... deng deng deng deng ...the answer r Haagen Dazs , Secret Recipe , Sushi King , Ice-Ice Baby , 喜来登 ,Inderawasih Western Food n many many more...^_^ Guess who i have shook his hand n congrate by him? haha...its YAB Lim Guan Eng ar... wahahhahahahah~~~XD

Guess how much was eaten me n some relatives of mine in Haagen Dazs... Wow!!! RM 300++ We had Chocolate steam baot with various fruit n 16 scoops of ace cream , new ice cream sushi , paradize ice cream that include 6 scoops of ice cream , 3 more "tongs" ice cream to take away n Haagen Dazs cake voucher.... Tats great n bad for me because im diet-ing but i love ice cream sooo much!

N of course Sushi King *_* :

N today my Cambridge English teacher buy us Secret Recipe!!! She is Teacher Jolyn n she is the cutest teacher in the world!^_^ ...

Sunday (25/4) , i had attented a prize giving ceremony in the early morning... Although i know that , the VIP of any ceremony must be a little bit late to show off their power n proud but i still felt so tired to wait for them...BUT all of these was worthy because i had received RM200 from there n also a cert ...^_^ brother Lim Guan Eng is really handsome n friendly , he smiled n congrated to all award reciepient !!! Wow~~~ I like his speech also! Strong n confident enough!!!

"Penang have been developed as well as KL . Of course cant be better than KL la , cuz KL is the boss ma!" I like his sarcastic :)

A long post... n i have to stop here... i wil post my other picture here later n hope to hear from you soon... Good Bye * TATA*~~~×

..........................................................................................Your Sincerely,

........................................................................................Red Flower

ps: Happy Rainy Day ~~~!^_^

我好像打了一场战。。。

2010-04-21T20:48:00.000-07:00

无意间在报纸上看到了这一个题目，思绪顿时如泉涌般不停流动。。。想想考完试过后，我的生活完全变了一个样。有玩乐有工作，有轻松的，也有紧张的，一切来得太紧凑，太快了。。。

来不及适应的生活，即使很美好，也无法享受到，只会让人觉得很疲惫，很烦乱，乱到让人无法相信，乱到令人空虚。。。很多时候，我越来越不敢去疯狂享乐，因为害怕狂欢之后的空虚。所以最近嘛，总是时不时回想起之前的中学时光，至少它是单纯的，简单的快乐。。。

嗯。。。所谓打战，应该就是我思想的战争吧！最近一直为升学的事情烦恼，有时想着想着，头还真的痛了起来。。。不知道该怎样，也不想再去想该怎么样，因为想了那么久，还是一点头绪都没有。。。我只知道，我讨厌读政府的大学先修班（Form6），就这样，其他的没有想到了。。。

好想念奇葩哦！！！我相信他们都有了自己的一套计划（辩论员应该都是比较有主见的嘛！），祝福他们吧！他们的未来会很好的。。。我呢？不知道，就算我的语文能力再好，我还是拼凑不出我升学的蓝图。。。我好象忘记了奇葩的勇气，也失去了奇葩的强韧，一点点这样的难题，我竟然解决不了！！！

算了吧，我现在只好为明天的快乐而快乐吧！为明天的开朗存在吧！为自己开心吧！为我的思绪战争而充实吧！哇哈哈哈哈哈。。。哇哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。再见咯！做无谓的沉思去！

p/s:昨晚看了初恋红豆冰，很不错的本地制作。看到眼睛湿湿的，所以强烈推荐哦～～

pp/ss：又是无聊的一篇。。。抱歉！^_^

我回来了～～！

2010-04-07T19:53:00.000-07:00

哇啊啊啊啊啊啊哇啊啊啊啊～～～ 好像到外太空游了一圈哦！感觉像是去了很久但是原来还不到一个月也～～～

其实一切得从领取成绩单的那天说起。。。

那是一个风和日丽的早晨，我心血来潮，准备到学校去领取我的成绩单。原本心想，拜托拜托，最少给我七八颗苹果，我就谢天谢地，翻天覆地，拜天拜地，哭天抢地的心满意足了。很平静地来到学校，很平静的到办公室找老师哈拉，顺便派派巧克力，很平常地和北钟的金钗们，混在一起，很平常的被志宏臭一下。。。一切都像山雨欲来风满楼那样的平静与安宁。。。

结果。。。

我竟然有机会抱着羽晶喜极而泣！！！竟然有机会被访问！！！竟然有机会上报！！！

是的，上天赐给了我十二颗苹果。。。（12As)! 这真是我想都没想过的啊。。。接下来几天，我就过着人见人赞，报见报刊的日子。还有顾客在我的店里认出我来（星洲日报登得太大篇了），问我在那里干嘛，去当医生才对吧！『喜滋滋，喜滋滋』。。。对于我这个狮子座的女生来说，这简直就是快乐似神仙，每一天都飘飘然的超爽过日子呢～～～

但是，这种快乐鸟日子，好像也没有维持很久，大约俩天半吧。因为，多亏我那大咧咧的性格，我连一点申请奖学金的头绪也没有，只好拨电问人呗！之后奖学金会申请了，却又不知道该选什么科好。。。营养师吧！市场太小；律师啦！太多人做了；商业管理吗？好冒险哦！～～～

两个星期过去了，勉强算是选定了科系吧=（法律），就暂时这样定着吧！却又在忙于上网或参加升学展，寻找奖学金。我妈说，没有得到JPA奖学金就去读Form6 好了；我堂姐说，别读私人学院啦！没前途的，哪里都是不认真的有钱人啊！朋友甲说：蛤！你要读Form6 哦？！好浪费你的成绩哦！不要啦。。。朋友乙说：虾米！你不要读College？？？做么？Form6很不好的，浪费时间罢了。。。。。

哎哟，烦死了！我想读私人学院啊！不想回钟灵了啦！但是又何耐，College贵死了。扣掉奖学金还需要付近十千啊！！！OMG！！！【大呼大叫～～～哦哟哦！！！】

所以暂时不想了，努力打拼我亲爱的JPA奖学金吧。。。

3月7日下午2：00 晴

重要的时刻到了！JPA面试（听说不太重要啦！）超讨厌的举行了。。。我没有很信心，也没有准备太多，没有怕到睡不着。简单来说，我能走，能跑，能跳，还能笑。。。不过。。。可能我没有化妆也那么美丽，那三个女考官，不爽我，给别人的问题就是那种小学六年级写马来文作文的题目，而我的就是读完A-level 后考试的那种题目。。。（如有任何疑问，请参考我的面子书）
哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。。苦笑呗！=）应该是别想了，虽然我答得不错，但是他们应该就是摆明了不想给我那份奖学金了吧！哇哈哈哈哈哈。。。。高处不胜寒哦^O^

现在。。。

很轻松啊！什么都不想了。。。私人学院的奖学金也不去申请了（死了心），政府的也别要了（我不姓马），乖乖的勉强一下，读Form6 吧。。。T-T（十万分的不愿意啊！！！）

好了！好长的一篇哦。。。没办法，这种不需要交代清楚的事情，还是想告诉你们。。。发完牢骚了，我走呗!!!

p/s: 祝各位前程似锦，学院生活快乐。。。T_T

pp/ss: 现实是公平的～～～个屁！

上班族～～×

2010-02-24T18:36:00.000-08:00

开始上班了！！！蛮开心的啦，至少不用再滞销在家里，等着发霉嘛。。。:D 用时间换取金钱，靠自己找钱花的感觉，还不错～～

话说，我之前已经成功靠到我的"P"了，但是还没有车，所以唯有麻烦我妈当一当司机，载我上下班咯！

我上班的店里，还蛮有趣的，可能是因为全部都是年轻女生的关系吧！尤其是那些做得较久的，特别有趣。她们不会抢顾客，不会勾心斗角，不会搞分派，不会大嘴巴，不会欺负新人或是尔虞我诈的。他们时常吵架的，为了那种小事，不过纯粹为了娱乐效果而吵，让在一旁看的人，放声大笑。不可一提的是，他们的笑声真的是无敌啊!!!要多大声就有多大声，要多尖就有多尖呢～～～！

这几天我还算是一个新新人，正努力学习店里的所有东西。。。前天吧，店长就告诉我关于佣金和奖励的规则了。。。佣金很少，不过无所谓啦，努力一点还是不错的。。。

那，我先走囖～～～上班去了^_^努力努力！！！

P/s:不完美万岁！！！

完美～～×

2010-02-16T00:35:00.001-08:00

我一直希望，我的人生会是很完美的。。。就是那种很唯美，很像童话故事中的感觉的，所以可能是因为这样，我会去要求，我一定要变得很完美。无论是最肤浅的外貌，身材，或是难度极高的内涵（没有人的内涵是完美的啊！），才艺，智商，智慧，能力，胆量，性格，甚至是人生，我都会执着的要求完美。。。

认识我的人嘛，应该会发现，我多少会表现出恼人的强势，还有无可救药的自大。我并不是真的对我有那么高的自信，而是我已经习惯了，用自己想太多的能力，麻痹自己，让自己远离被现实环境揭开疮疤的危险，继而让我自己相信，，真的有完美生活的存在。。。

但是今天，一个我早就预想到的意外的发生，在我的脑叶上，狠狠的敲了一下。我的人生本来就不能完美的，因为有一些命运早就安排给我的人生样貌，已经让整个生活，丑得不像样。。。完美？！本来就不会属于我。。。这个事实，我现在才知道。。。

迟了吗？无所谓啦。。。反正，这样的遐想确实也给了我好一阵子的支持，让我在面对可怕的打击时，不至于崩溃，或是倒下。。。

以前，我会痛恨那些抨击我的人，会极力去找出别人的不完美来衬托出自己的完美；而现在，我会开始去接受真正的现实，真正的我，也要学会去适应，所谓的不完美，努力去探讨别人的抨击，努力去接受。。。

幸福很不容易怎么你却不敢了呢？我还以为我们能不同于别人，我还以为不可能的，不会不可能。

p/s:不完美万岁！！！

我恭喜你发财！！！

2010-02-13T19:00:00.000-08:00

新年了也～～～！好棒，棒极了～～什么好棒？！呃。。。可以看一整天的无聊电视节目咯，不用工作，有新衣服穿，有很多很多的零食还有一大堆的汽水可以享用。。。然后呢？。。。。。。。。拿红包也很棒。。。。。。迟迟睡迟迟醒。。。。。这些算很棒了吧？

我嘛，今年就没有那么强烈的兴奋感，因为觉得没什么特别的，甚至会觉得有点闷，而且，浪费时间。。。

今年很特别噢。。。因为大年初一也是情人节（2月14）。。。但是，也和我没关系，因为我只有到处祝人家：“情人节快乐”的份。。。

好嘛，别不爽啊！再闷，生活还是要过的。。。所以，各位鸡巴，各位宝贝，准备哦。。。我会安排好一连串的行程，然后拉你们去玩哦！^_^等着吧吧！！！

p/s:新年快乐，情人节也快乐～～～！

pp/ss：我得到“P”咯～～～=）yeah!!!

发！发！发！

×生活×

2010-02-03T06:58:00.000-08:00

好了，吵了这样久，终于找到也安排好我的假期工作啦！跟大家交代一下（虽然不会有人想知道），我将会到Sunway 的Pinky Red 工作哦！有空时可以来看一看我啦。。。^_^顺便请我吃个午餐还是夜宵酱。。。不过是在新年过后才开工的，所以现在就先当一当美丽加有气质的花店小姐咯～～～（florist)^_^

情人节快到了，配合着农历新年，一起凑热闹。这让花朵的销售量越来越高耶。。。店里每天都有新的花送来，有玫瑰，太阳花，百合，菊花，非洲菊，满天星，还有很多很多。看了也觉得很爽。有谁要花吗？可以跟我定啦。。。别误会，我可是没有拿佣金的，可是看到有人买花，就会很幸福，因为，有人买花，就代表另一头也会有个人会是幸福的笑着，接过这束花的。。。

我个人嘛，很遗憾，活这样久了，还是没有收过男生送的花耶。。。^_^唯一一次收到花的也只有在十三岁那年的生日会上，父母送的那一束。。。想想，也应该没有那么快会收到的，因为我不是美女，更不是校花，也不是那种全身上下都充满魅力的女生。不过，我倒是一个大咧咧，不会为了得到别人的爱戴而选择做作，耍心机的那种女生。我很庆幸，在年轻时候，我是这样的女生，至少在别的男生拼命以开玩笑的口气嘲笑我时，我还不会看不起我自己。。。

最近，我开始不适应现实的环境，所以有遇到我，跟我哈拉的人一定会发现，我的情绪化严重了。。。不过还好啦，我现在每天对着那些鲜花，心情还不错。还有，我妈最近一直向我抱怨，她变肥了，怎么办？我敷衍过去了。。。好像看书哦！尤其是九把刀的，任性小说，谁有？借我啦!^_^

拜拜～～去睡了，为了生活，大家请狂热吧！！！

p/s:情人节快乐！恭喜发财！！！

突然。。。

2010-01-28T08:34:00.000-08:00

突然间，一切都好像不一样了，都变得好像不应该是这样的，至少，跟我想象的完全不一样。。。我好像没有那么贫乏，但是却也觉得没有了什么，空荡荡的，连声音也没有。。。可怕的是，我竟然不知道，是什么使一切变得空荡荡了，是什么没有了。甚至，我不知道这一切是怎么搞的，乱了，乱了。。。

很不错吧！^_^我很喜欢呢。。。是小说的一部分啦！别期望太高，可能完成不了了，因为我最近要积极找工作，不可以像脑残璇这样，颓废下去了。。。

最近的心里还真像上面写的那样，空空的，没有什么，闷闷不乐的，在找着工作。既然大家都这样闷闷的，那么我就告诉大家一些国际性的秘密吧！！！

自从美国的现任总统，奥巴马登基后，人们开始有了重大的转变，
以前人们遇到难题时都会喊：“Oh My God!!!”
现在不是了，人们都喊：
“Oh 巴马!!!”(奥巴马）

还有，自从奥巴马登基后，大家都很高兴，
因为大家都知道他会是大家的父母官（好官），
原因是：Oh!爸妈！！！（奥巴马）

好啦！冷了一点，我也忘了是在哪里看到，分享一下，才会有美好的明天嘛！！！

p/s: 我要工作！！！

大便！！！

2010-01-24T21:39:00.000-08:00

这样骂好像有比较斯文好听一点，（正版的是shit!!)。真的是吐血！不能说很生气啦。就是有点莫名其妙咯～～～

今天早上去考车，很顺利地过了上山那一关，这是我最担心的，不过很完美的过了。。。兴奋到了极点，心想接下来应该是也无风雨也无晴了，结果泊车的那一关压线。。。原本还可以在做多一次的，但是我也不知道为什么我去举手，结果。。。。

好咯，我想之前已经衰到酱了，之后的公路测试应该可以过得吧！结果，我真的认为我驾的有顺又对，那个考官又一脸和善，哪里知道，我翻开成绩单的时候，真的快要吐血了！！！打叉多到我自己都吓到。什么没有打信号灯（signal）（我明明每一个转弯处都有打灯也！），没有弯好好（屁啦，弯道有人睡觉都不会被吓醒好吗？！），使用刹车不当（怎样不当？！）。。。

真的中我之前说的：“我倒霉起来，连我怎样fail的我都不知道。。。”是不是很大便？！下次再考是没有问题的，但是我到底哪里错？！！！连我该改什么都不知道，怎么考？！算了。。。可能我下次不会再这样倒霉了。。。可能啦。。。

p/s:大便！！去死！！大便！！！