enjoy~ X

Do you ?

累～×

连续了快两个礼拜每天读差不多10个小时的书了。。。拍手给我，快点～！。。。。。谢谢啦～！XD


正在努力着～追一次奇迹。就算到后来还是什么都没有，也就算了～就赌他一次吧！加油！！！红花～ <3

My day ～×

Raining whole day . Just like Annelise said ,its my day .yeah , my rainy day ~ :)


Somehow ,im like really stressed out a little bit . STPM trial is around the corner ,which is three weeks after . Freaking nervous . I have done my revision and finish a lot of books and also notes but still i feel like i have to do more and works harder ,but what else ?I dunno whats feeling is that but it is BAD ~! Like we aren't ready yet but still there is no more things to do .Which mean i can do nothing ~! ><


Well ,maybe thats one of the reason besides this moist weather which make me quite emo nowadays . haha .Again ... Ya, im loser in this ~ So what ? =P


Actually , i feel like gotta have a long post here .But i forgot everything in a second ~! hehe ...so ,next time ba ~ =) Its holiday now, so i will be here more frequently ,so see you ~ ^^


p/s : Its so sweet when you know that someone is think of you . Or when they say "i miss u " . Thats so great to be heard . <3

Bye ～×

最近很忙很忙，忙读书啦，忙赚钱啦，忙出席叙别会啦，忙整理人际关系啦，忙家庭问题啦，忙自己的情绪管理啦。。。总之就是很忙很忙 。。。


又再一次的有那种迷路的感觉，我不知道我在干什么？也不知道为什么要干这些事情。。。我很想很想放掉这一切看起来其实一点都不难，但是加在一起就是很乱糟糟的圈子。。。屁。。。


竣侥鸡巴走了。其实现在就有点想念他的感觉了。可能是觉得会有两三年不见面了吧，才会这样觉得。刚开始以为，根本就是没什么大不了的出国留学罢了，但是在他转身进闸的那一瞬间，真的觉得，好不舍得。看到她妈妈和大姐，拥抱后留下眼泪，其实真的很感动。我其实能想象到我自己进闸的这一瞬间，我妈咪，应该也会这样吧 。。。


说回这位竣侥鸡巴吧～他啊，算是我的中学生涯中一个很重要很重要的角色吧。有时候想想，以我们之间的差距，能认识到本来是很难的事情。可能就差那么一点，我会变成那一些现在在我面前说他有多不可一世及多难相处的人吧！结果现在我们是很好很好的朋友也～！XD 哈哈～至少我看过他哭咯。哈哈。。。曾经他说过一句话（他应该有105%忘记了）：“你可以不要这样看小你自己吗？"真的是有被我珍藏咯～也是在那一段很难过的低潮期里，我们一起度过，真的真的很难得，害到我现在，超级无敌怀念的～><


这几天，其实很烦人。因为鸡巴就是那一种，大家不需要特别做任何形式上的东西来相处的朋友。而这几天，也就是竣侥离开大马的前几天，我就是真的很想大家，五个鸡巴好好的聚一聚。很可能是最后一次了，未来会怎样，我们不知道。就突然的那种不安全感，真的很糟。结果，好不容易联络到大头能够赶回来了，志宏也可以了，就是小眼睛鸡巴给我无法出席（并不是无法吧）。而最后一天的机场送机之约，也无法弄到五位鸡巴在场。。。蛮难过的。所以在回家的路上，突然的依寞，让我不想说话了～大家其实也都习惯了啦，哈哈，我知道他们习惯了，所以我就自己依寞自己爽啊～哈哈。。。


刚刚看过了大头鸡巴的部落格，蛮感动的。所以觉得我也有必要来一遍这样的”感性“文章～唉～人生啊～ ～～～


p/s : 叶竣侥鸡巴，祝你在美国会变帅啦。记得记得，不要变成带艾滋病的女神卡卡啊～～～=P

The Deathly Hollow ～×

Its just yesterday when i went to Sunway to watch this Harry Potter final run . A little bit sad as its the end for harry potter movie .... Awwww..... i want my Hogwarts la .... Why cant i study there ?! >< hehe ...



Its really hard to get ready for STPM .AS im a energetic girl (=P) Its super hard for me to sit down properly and do my revisioin for 10 hours a day kay ? Its imposible ~!!! As so , 4 flat is going further and further from me now ... TT haiz ... What can i do ?



I know that i have leave my blog for a long long time . Can this prove that im a hardworking or good girl ? Erm ... I dunno ...


Well , going to 文娱晚会tomorrow . outing AGAIN ~!!! >< OMG , that free ticket fly into my pocket so how can i dont go ? OMFG～！！！


Anyway ,i believe that i will doing what i have to do right now actually .But hopes that my battery can last long enough until STPM which is still 124 days to go ~! O.O HELP~!!!

Okay ,gtg ,just feel like want to update my blog with some words . Im gotta bake tomorrow ~!!! I love baking ~!!! My homemade cheesecake was damn delicious ~! XD Its true ~ I got 100% of very good comments from every tester ~ hehe ~ so proud of myself .So , the sigh of " Ready to be married" is up now ~! XD hahahaha....


ps: Bye bye and good night ~! Enjoy your life ~!!!　^_^

其实～×

其实，最近的日子我对我自己的依寞水平的维持是感到很满意的。上一篇那么依寞的红花心情日记，其实就是那么久以来的累计式的发泄而已啦～别担心，也别边读边说什么：“唉，又来了。。。”之类的话，哈哈，我会内疚的～！哈哈哈～



其实，最近都很努力。努力温习，努力做功课，努力跑步，努力地做个烂好人（也就是拼命逼自己吃亏的那种><），努力的戒掉pekchek，努力的收敛一点，努力地学成熟一点。不知道成果怎样，不过我自己倒是很满意的，至少目前为止，我只发过一次脾气，而且是向狗狗发的脾气，我不觉得有错咯～哈哈哈。。。

其实，我知道我自己幸福到爆。我也很开心啊～看我把嘴巴笑到这样大就知道了吧～！我知道我很不错的，至少我没有JJ鸡巴这样鸟，没有志宏鸡巴那么做作，没有蓝金鸡巴那么白目欠打，也没有卿庄鸡巴的那么强势（她妹妹偷偷告诉我的XD） ，对吧？！XDXD



其实，这只是一篇废话，纯粹是看今天那么有空才上来乱更新，挤掉之前依寞的那篇而已。。。呵呵～感谢阅读，这里是超级无敌依寞的红花，超无聊欠揍报道～


p/s : Really Thanks to all of the lovely messages and im actually so suprise with them ,as i thought im the only reader of this blog ,kakaz.... Really thank you guys ~! I appreciate that so much ~! ^.^

幸福。生活～×

有时候，真的觉得这个世界太乱了，常常嘈杂的让别人误解自己那原本再简单不过的原义。
最近，做了些努力，数学啊，物理什么的，有点变得容易了，较得心应手了，但到后来才发现，其实最难的生活大道理，我花了十九年，还是学不会。。。

有时，真的会很沮丧。这个世界到底要我怎样，才是对的？我到底应该是怎样的一个人～当我觉得一切的伪装都不错了，足以应付外面的现实时，又突然被指责，被控诉，我其实怎样怎样，不应该怎样怎样。。。。我到底该怎样？？？我可不可以请谁来给我个答案？拜托。。。？


什么香蕉个大道理？有时还真的很讨厌自己。我很容易内疚的。就算是别人的不是，我也可以内疚一番。是我太小气？是我的错？我处理的很糟？我说的都很shit?


周围都闹哄哄的，我一个人就好像千夫所指的那一位，沉默着，让天使和恶魔交替发言着。我的错？其实我是对的？我太糟糕了？我没有问题啊。我真的很讨厌。你并不是，你就是那么令人讨厌！我不是～我是～我不是，我是。。。猛然站起身，随手抓了一份数学练习，面无表情的走出课室。这时是下课，大家都很兴高采烈的。我却只顾着走，尽量撑着。这种因为忍着眼泪而喉咙痛的经验，好像也习惯了。走进礼堂，张望了四周，决定到最不可能有人烟的舞台走去。坐在隐秘的梯边。为了不让别人发现，便假装在思考数学题，头低着，却无法完全消音。抽泣的声音其实还蛮好听的。就是这种委屈，我不可以让别人发现我很在意。期望有谁来安慰？不，不希望有。我不要是小气的，爱哭的那一种女生。需要肩膀？我不需要，因为我没有，没有人会愿意把肩膀捐给我这种讨厌的女生好吗？


还剩下五分钟。这个世界不会在这五分钟内转变。但我可以。我可以当没有事情发生过。我走到图书馆，再到食堂，再回到课室。没有人发现我的不对劲，很好。又再可以挤出笑脸，又再可以假装开朗坚强得可以随便大家大刀乱砍，暗箭乱射，都不需要理会。


我很强的，绝对的。你要不要来当当看像我的这种女生？或许你会做得比我好呢？^^ 加油吧，红花。乱糟糟的感觉，会过的。。。活着吧，看看哪一天，你会开窍的啦。。。


p/s :希望没有人看到这篇依寞的红花心情记事。。。

Holiday gonna end ~ ×

Hello~~~ ! A too relax aunty is here ~just want to shout out loud ~ But i found that the world is so small as i cant even find a place to do so ~ =( Maybe im too big ?! hahaha ...

Went to my lovely Penang last Wednesday ~ And here's our photos ~ ^^

Im changing my style after the national debate competition , when i wore like a CEO ( not OL!) ,as i like myself in that feminine look~! hehe ...am i ?ＸＤ

Today is the last day of my two weeks school holiday ... Gonna bake muffin later ·Hehe ,just suddenly in the baking mood ~! Today will be my last day to do these stupid and enjoyable things , after that ,gotta work the hardest and try my best in my study ~! >< Im going to have STPM which is the most difficult exam in the world ~! (most or second most lar ~ haha .) Will i die in this war ?ＯＭＧ~! hahaha ...maybe ~ I fail my Chemist for second time since lower six ~Haiz ... I can still feel so satisfy as my result is not the lowest one in my class ~! OMFG～ Im gotta killed by this stupid attitude~!

Okay , see u guys later ~ =) hehe ...

P/s : Its time to reveal my sucks result ~!

Im home ~＊

Im having a totally relax and meaningless holiday which i wished to have before after the national debate competition~ I even feel like dont want to move my fingers to type anything . But luckily , to show off my photos in the competition , i update my blog for the second time in this two weeks holidays ~ ^^

　

　

Still , lazy to type, because im going to Penang~!!! wahahaha ... I love Penang~! =) Happy Holidays guys~!!!!! ^.^

p/s: Having to much of delicacy ~ＨＥｈｅ　．．．

Away ~ ×

Will leave my sweet home for 4 days ~! To a debate competition ,which we are suppose to be the participant but volunteer ~ ...=(

Anyway , just to have my last update in following 4 days . ^^ I think there will b a lot of photos after i come back here ... hehe ...hopes that everything will be perfect la ~!!!

See you~!

p/s : those daughter ar really ... haiz... have to used to it~

pp/ss : bye bye to my first ...

TGI Holiday ~!!!

Yay ~ 红花真的很喜欢假期～！当然啦，谁不是？=P 这次的假期是在很幸苦的努力过后来临的，所以显得格外珍贵～假期之所以可爱，是因为我们可以逃离学校这个鬼地方，远离那些牛鬼蛇神。能的话，可以好好的闭关一下，躲进自己意识中的世外桃源，或是直接到远一点的地方，还真的是香蕉个苹果太爽啦～～～

回想起之前的假期，真的很开心。

12/31/2010-3/1/2011 - 新加坡～

2007 假期 - 泰国合艾

9/2010 - 槟城世界古迹遗产

9/2010 - Langkawi

还有一些的，但是懒得整理了啦～ ><

我想要旅行～！！！这句话我好像说了很久，但是结果是很令人失望的。现在我才发现，我其实并不属于任何一个点。我好像很多朋友，但是却猛然发现，原来我找不到一个人，就那么一个人和我去旅行。一个都没有。家人呢？很多问题，使得我很久没有和家人去旅行咯～上面到泰国的那一次之最近的一次了～一个人不能去吗？可以，当然可以。只是会寂寞一点，乏味一点，危险一点，无聊一点，依寞一点。就那么简单～

算了吧～就学习“一个人”的技巧好了。去适应那种很多人在你身边团团转，结果却没有一个人会对你有特别意义的那种感觉好了～反正依寞红花本来就很奇怪，在奇怪一点也无妨。。。

好了，该是享受假期的时候了～红花生活去了～ Ciao ~

*p/s : 任何人去旅行最好不要告诉我，我会妒忌的。。。

My Experience with SONY Cyber Shot

Its really a great day ~! I love it so much and gonna to share this happiest and craziest day of JIBAS with you guys here ~ :) Will be a lot of photos and just a few words ~ ^^ hehe ,this is the lazy blogger style la ~!

Early in the morning , go shopping at Gurney ~!!!

Mr. JJ's favourite , Top Man ~!=)

And lunch time arrived ~! Hehe, shopping makes us feel hungry so easily . So, the first choice of JIBAS is CHILLIS ~!!!

They are sooooo delicious ~!!! Believe me , I cant even find a word to describe that level of delicious ~! wahahaha ... ( Hyperbola ) =P

And, this is my favourite ~!!!!!OMG ~ saliva keep secreting~ XD

And then , its time to picnic ~! ^.^ We bought sushi , snacks , grape , yogurt, and fruit juice~ hahaha , what a cute people ~

Here's the main point of this trip ~ =) Batu Ferringi ~! Its a really beautiful beach and I love it so much and i do plan to live there after retire ~ Hehe ~ :)

You can found that all of us wearing the "LAH " shirt . Its bought about maybe 2 years ago ,when we first picnic at Batu Ferringi ~ And we keep it until now, which we will wear it everytime we picnic here ~ ^^

See, peaceful and nice ~~~

After that , Its dinner time ~! ^^

We went to SOHO , Autocity ~Erm ,not really good for dinner but clubbing i think ~ =) The food is just "ok" only but still the price is reasonable ~

After the dinner , its time to go home . I really miss this trip so much as we will not have this chance anymore in the future ~ Everyone of us is going to be far apart ...... I really mean far ~ haiz, so, how about a picnic in this coming holidays ? =P