im here and starring the same page of the dashboard and then decided to write nothing...

How lazy am i?!

OMG....

But i promise , tomorrow i will post an interesting story here!!! Everything is in my head actually but ...im too lazy to type... (Maybe...)

Rainy day here.... I love it badly....

Going to have my breakfast in McD tomorrow morning with my lovely friends .Dun warn me about the weight issue ... Putting on weight ain't something bad for me ,because im fat enough now so its doen't matter to become fatter and fatter and fatter and then ....... hate myself then maybe suicide in the end .... haha... WHATEVER～～×


p/s: Have a horrible new haircut but so what? ... im already fall in this damnly bad form 6 so , what to care about ? .im used to be ugly in my previous life wat?! haha...WHATEVER!!!!!!!!

宅一下～～

嗯。。。思考的有点久了，写不出来该写的东西。。。只好简略的，稍微的，交代一下（好像没有人要我交代。。。^_^)

我不爽，因为：
1）明天又检查头发咯！感觉自已很犯贱，几岁了？！！！ 还要给那几只检查头发？！白痴。。。而且我的头发也超标了！在想着该怎样塞。。。白痴。。。

2）数学老师真的很烂！！！有点接近初中的程度了吧！我的天哪！！！

3）我正在改造着我的思想与态度，就是一些内涵的深度啦（有点做作。。。）学习着如何磨棱擦角，去跟一些真的很霸道的人相处。学习如何忍耐那些打肿脸皮充胖子的自大狂，以及那些脆弱的好像被风吹也会碎掉的人。。。然后观察人与人之间相处时，那些白痴与荒谬的结果。。。这是一件十分非常超级难的事，明白吗？有些人就是一辈子都不可能去做这样的事，所以我不止智商很高噢，我的情绪管理也不错（最好是这样啦！！！！>.<）



我很爽，因为：
1）下个星期六要参加才艺比赛咯！和班花科吟还有豆花文惠一起表演钢琴伴奏与合唱噢。。。我爱唱歌！！！我爱音乐！！！所以就算要我这两个星期里面把声音练沙哑，弹琴弹得手指抽筋，我还是很爽！！！哇哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。

2）我时间真的很多，多的足够让我胡思乱想。有时想到发慌时，就不爽，但是有时间就应该爽，因为我也不知道我及时会忙到连动脑都嫌烦。。。

3）打雷囖！要下雨咯！好兴奋好爽啊！！！！！！！


总的来说，我真的有点厌倦了对着别人笑的日子。我在学习如何掩饰我的情绪低落。但是，情绪总会从我的表情显露无遗。。。我是爽的，因为我该把握当下（班花教的。）很想说，个屁！！！


p/s:我是爽的咯！！！唉～～～

p/ss:白痴！！！！！！！

Its the time～～×

I have already fall out from my depression . I think .Everything seems to be different from now on .Im the chairman of the Counselling Club ...(Hurray!!!) Should i ? And i joined the Koperasi club also ,to be a salesgirl + cleaner in the recess time . Our stupid project will start soon ,yet ,we have to stay in the school until 2.30pm ...Damnly unacceptable actually ,but what to do?!


Maybe those hassle things are one of the important matter to clear my depression and disappointment .Its the time ,I think ...to have a new life and a new starting point , to start everything over .Its life ,we always end in the pain but start with the dream ... Isnt it?! ^_^ But unfortunately , i lost all my target ,dream and objective now .Everytime when i have the chance to have a wish , no even one wish will come across my mind . Thats weird ,and maybe sad ... I want nothing ,though , have nothing too....



Its the time ... So , what am i waiting for?! I should have forgot everything and create another ME ... Am i right?! erm... I dun think so ....××



p/s: Tomorrow is our Canteen Day!!! But food will make me fat die ... WHATEVER~~~ ^_^

pp/ss :there r three ppl that praise me in the school today !!! (they said im pretty...*.*) OMG~~~ How happy am i !!!!!!! ^o^

Good Day～～^…^

When the wind blow and the yellow leaves dance together ,
when the sun shine and reflect the happiness into my eyes until my heart ,
when then sound of downpour move the lyric of my soul ,



I found my ideal life that i had longed for . Im happy with the peace .Its a good day , like which i had in my childhood . Its an amazing song of mine , like which i played for a thousand time , but still have some deep feeling about it , entitled my life ..

.Its a good day !



p/s : I have finished my debate competition ,finished all my homework , cut down my meals , cut down emo , and hang around with JIBA ... Its good ...

pp/ss : Its some kind of upliftment in mood ~~~^_^

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse Official Trailer 2 [FM]

Really long for it!!! Woohoo~~~ So excited to watch even it is just a trailer ! OMG... Eclipse , Im coming to you ...SOON! ^_^

Nothing is better than my life～～×

YUP ! A drastic change in mood today . Maybe because of the lunch that i had today with JunJiao , Eugene ,Annelise , Eugene's sister and a boy that i dont even know who is he after school. Or thats because i have eaten so many delicacy such as TomYam Noodle in Mama Curry Rice (There only have 1 food about curry but others=.=) , Milky green tea , steam fish by my mum , fried rice in school and something that i cant remember any more... Or ,it may be caused by the preparation of a debate competition recently , as it make my life full and more meaningful .


Moreover , tomorrow is HOLIDAY !!!! How good is it ^_^ I planned to swim tomorrow morning and maybe shopping in afternoon . But i still need some time to twist my brain on the debate title ... Whatever ^_^


Now only im glad that im single . Because i no need to use up my limited time to adhere to my boyfriend . I no need to complain about my boyfriend or annoyed by some small quarrel which have happened on one of my close friend .When , i need someone's shoulder to support my sadness, i will look forward to my best best friend .This best best friend is really a great and priceless friend that i never had before . I feel like the luckiest person in the world to have her as my best best friend ~~~ ^_^ Therefor , One is better than two !!!


Having improvement in my language skills is the other thing that worth to be happy . Although when i asked JunJiao about this question , he answered me :" Maybe you are but for me there have no any different lo! " Haha , quite a cruel comment ^_^ but suprisingly , i accept it with a smile . thats one of the things that i have learnt from the fall a month before . Ya, i think so ...


Occupy my life with homework is a really effective way to bring myself away from the pain . Taking some amazing photo will make the beautiful scene stop in my mind easily and thus pay more attention on the beauty of the world and life. Laugh loudly with my beloved friends and talk everything with them without any theme will drop down some precious scene in my blanket of memory . Listen to others more than protest their words . I must learnt to be a gentle girl instead of a hot-tempered bitch . i must learn to enjoy the disappointment in my life and try not to be too eager for triumph .



Im learning . Learning to live , learning to turn into a new leave. im trying to live a fullest life , and also a colorful young story about ME ~~~ × ^_^

p/s : Happy Holiday ~~~! tomorrow =.=

A dream～～×

Im here but you cant read my tear at all ...
Its raining here but you cant feel my coolness at all ...
Its breaking into pieces but you cant heard the sound of crush at all...
I do not wish to yell or shout or cry at anyone , so i just stand still in the perfect silent corner , like a statue ... Im standing here , to tell every passer by my stupid and painful story... it mean nothing to anyone of the world actually ... so , im just looking forward to become clever enough , to relief myself and forget everything ...


Then , i will feel stupid and regret about my sadness before . I will tease myself to being so emo and behave like a crazy dog that keep barking to the wall ...
Everything will become a dream , or, a nightmare . Im still here , looking at myself ,speechless . The world is big enough to hide my dream and my feeling , but not enough to fill my emptiness .


Ya....emo again... SO WHAT!!! HAHA...im laughing to myself !

p/s: Good night , girl! Nice to meet you , nightmare!